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dont you just hate those days... when it goes from awesome... to bad... to completley downhill... to better? its so confusing. im such a rollercoaster of emotions and im fucking sick of it. i hate living like this. i wanna have a stable live. and not live in an environment where i become an emotional trainwreck. serously today i go from hysterically crying to being perfectly fine in one minute and i hate living like that because i know truly im fucking unhappy. unhappy with myself. and unhappy with entire life i lead.
so lets recap today...
so this morning i went to work at the vets office... had a good time there just talking with everyone and being with the animals and shit then i wa sjust hanging ouy at home and everything perfectly content. when i figure out i have ot go out for dinner with my dad... which is really fucking akward since the whole divorce and shit and cause i never see him. but w/e. i got through it even though it put me in a shitty mood. then after that i get home and i start talking with CJ. he tells me that the whole ordeal was a false alarm and all that shit so i had it stuck in my head that we were gonna get back together. apparently i had it all wrong. bc pretty much theres no way in hell were getting back together now. he had me in tears for about an hour and told me pretty straight to my face that were over. then ashley called me and talked me out of my whole depression. and now im just here... not really feeling anything at all. just with alot on my mind. and alot of problems to straighten out.mostly problems with myself.
i just wish i knew what to do with myself
so lets recap today...
so this morning i went to work at the vets office... had a good time there just talking with everyone and being with the animals and shit then i wa sjust hanging ouy at home and everything perfectly content. when i figure out i have ot go out for dinner with my dad... which is really fucking akward since the whole divorce and shit and cause i never see him. but w/e. i got through it even though it put me in a shitty mood. then after that i get home and i start talking with CJ. he tells me that the whole ordeal was a false alarm and all that shit so i had it stuck in my head that we were gonna get back together. apparently i had it all wrong. bc pretty much theres no way in hell were getting back together now. he had me in tears for about an hour and told me pretty straight to my face that were over. then ashley called me and talked me out of my whole depression. and now im just here... not really feeling anything at all. just with alot on my mind. and alot of problems to straighten out.mostly problems with myself.
i just wish i knew what to do with myself