Not a thing to do, still growing old though
Life is so boring. I wish I could find something to do with my time. I used to have a lot of patience but, now it's like I can't be happy doing something I like for five minutes. I was working on my pony falls and now I find the whole thing boring and difficult, before I found it fun and I was happy to be doing something new. Without a job, there's no money for me to go out and have some fun and there's no life. I haven't been with any of my so-called friends in awhile and I would just like to forget about them, just causes more bad thoughts and could be a waste of time (*heh* all I have is time). With my boyfriend having a part-time job and bills to pay, I don't see him very often. I feel really guilty for leaving him the other day, but my parents don't like him and they especially don't like the fact that I stay with him for days at a time. If I got a job on his side of town I wouldn't feel so guilty for leaving my parents house. Most people are happy to get out of their parents house, but my parents are really cool and they provide and work really hard for me. I don't like leaving them. You got to do what you need to do.