I hate it.

[suicide_ana]

Your ruining my god damn life! The bad thing is that I like you too god damn much to stop it. My home life is turning to hell again and I can't stop it. I don't know what you're doing to me but I like it. I like it and its hurting everything else. I always give up stuff that makes me happy for my family and I'm not this time. I should but I'm not.

I hate fucking crying. That's all I do at home now. That's all I think about now. I hate it so fucking much.

All our final decisions are made in a state of mind that is not going to last.