From Cori's Journal

[suicidalxspider]

I AM: bored, sad, lonley,sick of the games
I AM NOT: not loved...
I HURT: all the time
I LOVE: everyone knows who i love
I FEAR: being hurt..again
I HATE: getting hurt, by someone i love.
I HOPE: he will like me as much as i like him, i will wait for as long as it takes
I HEAR: music
I CRAVE: someone to love me back, and mean it
I REGRET: everything
I CRY: everyday
I CARE: about...
I ALWAYS: am there for my friends
I BELIEVE: that someday he -will- like me
I LONG: to see courtney, just once more.
I FEEL ALONE: everyday.
I LISTEN: at my parents yell at me for no reason.
I SING: senses fail, at the top of my lungs, till i cry.
I DANCE: only when im happy, or hyper.
I WRITE: everyday in my journal
I PLAY: nothing..not eyt atleast
I MISS: what used to be
I SEARCH: for meaning
I LEARN: alot but nothing that i can use.
I FEEL: alone, sad, tired
I KNOW: enough
I SUCCEED: at nothing, im useless
I DREAM: i havnt had a dream in a long time.
I WONDER: how long its gonna take....
I WANT: to be loved..
I HAVE: to study, and clean my room, and...i should probly eat.
I GIVE: all the love i can. *sigh*
I WAIT: *sigh* i wait for...him..
I NEED: to stop thinking about you.
I KILL: myself, a little at a time.