Just how deep do you believe?
I can't sleep...What a surprise.
I changed my Livejournal all around still have Dani Filth icon though.
I don't feel like I fit in any where anymore I use to be able to define myself as metal head or stoner or something of the sort but now I'm to "mainstream" and not heavy enough for the metal heads I don't smoke enough pot for the potheads. It's just a total feeling of being outcast and judged without any thought or understanding going into peopels actions. And being more mature then most the fucks out there only makes it worse. Its like being around a bunch of children you know they won't understand even if you explain it to them they usually don't even have the attention spand or manners to listen.They'd just stick there tongues out and kick dirt in your face. I wish I could just have a conversation with someone who I barely agree on a thing with but is understanding enough to tolerate and listen and be open minded...I try with some of my friends but theres just the awkwardness of not seeing each other and trying to act like we are still the greatest of friends though we both know it hardly matters anymore. Half the people I do see anymore is more or less out of habit.
Well as some of you might of heared I am moving to Palm Coast Florida we already have a house down there my dad and brother are living there now. Maybe I need the change. I'm not really losing anything moving nothing I haven't already lost for the most part. I'm just going to miss my sisters and other family here. And the weather and seasons.
I always feel the need to speak my thoughts during lack of sleep.
I changed my Livejournal all around still have Dani Filth icon though.
I don't feel like I fit in any where anymore I use to be able to define myself as metal head or stoner or something of the sort but now I'm to "mainstream" and not heavy enough for the metal heads I don't smoke enough pot for the potheads. It's just a total feeling of being outcast and judged without any thought or understanding going into peopels actions. And being more mature then most the fucks out there only makes it worse. Its like being around a bunch of children you know they won't understand even if you explain it to them they usually don't even have the attention spand or manners to listen.They'd just stick there tongues out and kick dirt in your face. I wish I could just have a conversation with someone who I barely agree on a thing with but is understanding enough to tolerate and listen and be open minded...I try with some of my friends but theres just the awkwardness of not seeing each other and trying to act like we are still the greatest of friends though we both know it hardly matters anymore. Half the people I do see anymore is more or less out of habit.
Well as some of you might of heared I am moving to Palm Coast Florida we already have a house down there my dad and brother are living there now. Maybe I need the change. I'm not really losing anything moving nothing I haven't already lost for the most part. I'm just going to miss my sisters and other family here. And the weather and seasons.
I always feel the need to speak my thoughts during lack of sleep.