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I'm so worried about my baby.
She has this uncanny knack for stressing herself to the limit. She found out she didn't get a part in whatever production it is she was trying for, and I think there's more to it than what meets the eye. After all, the same guy doing the production has ridden her ass about being in some class that she doesn't really have time for and made her cry on two separate occasions about. And for a professor, that's really fucked. I understand why he would want her in the class, and I understand she is VERY talented (despite whatever she may claim) but that's beyond the line.
She's got a lot on her plate and she isn't motivated like she should be. I don't know what to do, and I see myself as a major distraction. Like before work today she should have been working on some art she has to do for one of her classes. Did she do it? Only after I told her that if she didn't I would stop coming home from work until she was at work. :bangs head: WHY does it have to be so difficult? She knows what she's doing, she just procrastinates constantly. I hate watching her do this shit to herself. It makes me sick. I understand she has a lot on her plate, and maybe her not getting a part in this play is a 'blessing' in disguise. It will give her more time to focus on what classes she does have, and allow her to put forth more effort and time in them instead of slacking ass and bullshitting around like she did last semester. (This still pisses me off, for reasons only she knows)
I'm also ecstatic to see that I can now freely mention out engagement. Weee! I'm so happy. Well, happy with her. Other shit in life sucks, but hey, can't have it all, and I'll happiness with her over anything else in life going well. I still don't understand why it has had to be kept under wraps, but well... fuck if I know. Just makes me further doubt myself. But that's a completely different issue entirely. I guess a lot of it is people that she is close to not liking me. I guess I'm supposed to care, and to an extent I do. If Dani didn't like me I'd be upset. Well, it's more any friend who doesn't come from a biased position that I care what their opinion is. If you don't like me because I don't talk to you like I have been your best buddy for years, well, I haven't and I've been through enough bullshit from fake people to keep my mouth shut. Aside from that, too many people are hyper sensitive. Don't like jew jokes/references, don't like my anti-religious stance, don't like that I'll tell you if something is (in my opinion) bullshit/preposterous etc. or just simply don't like that I would rather listen than open my mouth. But I feel that that is something more people need to do.
Well, I'm off to wrench like a mother fucker on one oil spitting car. It's like a god damned sieve!!!
She has this uncanny knack for stressing herself to the limit. She found out she didn't get a part in whatever production it is she was trying for, and I think there's more to it than what meets the eye. After all, the same guy doing the production has ridden her ass about being in some class that she doesn't really have time for and made her cry on two separate occasions about. And for a professor, that's really fucked. I understand why he would want her in the class, and I understand she is VERY talented (despite whatever she may claim) but that's beyond the line.
She's got a lot on her plate and she isn't motivated like she should be. I don't know what to do, and I see myself as a major distraction. Like before work today she should have been working on some art she has to do for one of her classes. Did she do it? Only after I told her that if she didn't I would stop coming home from work until she was at work. :bangs head: WHY does it have to be so difficult? She knows what she's doing, she just procrastinates constantly. I hate watching her do this shit to herself. It makes me sick. I understand she has a lot on her plate, and maybe her not getting a part in this play is a 'blessing' in disguise. It will give her more time to focus on what classes she does have, and allow her to put forth more effort and time in them instead of slacking ass and bullshitting around like she did last semester. (This still pisses me off, for reasons only she knows)
I'm also ecstatic to see that I can now freely mention out engagement. Weee! I'm so happy. Well, happy with her. Other shit in life sucks, but hey, can't have it all, and I'll happiness with her over anything else in life going well. I still don't understand why it has had to be kept under wraps, but well... fuck if I know. Just makes me further doubt myself. But that's a completely different issue entirely. I guess a lot of it is people that she is close to not liking me. I guess I'm supposed to care, and to an extent I do. If Dani didn't like me I'd be upset. Well, it's more any friend who doesn't come from a biased position that I care what their opinion is. If you don't like me because I don't talk to you like I have been your best buddy for years, well, I haven't and I've been through enough bullshit from fake people to keep my mouth shut. Aside from that, too many people are hyper sensitive. Don't like jew jokes/references, don't like my anti-religious stance, don't like that I'll tell you if something is (in my opinion) bullshit/preposterous etc. or just simply don't like that I would rather listen than open my mouth. But I feel that that is something more people need to do.
Well, I'm off to wrench like a mother fucker on one oil spitting car. It's like a god damned sieve!!!