With that being said
I feel as though I should actually update on the happenings of my life in the past year or so.
I started college at WVU in August of 2007. I felt completely and utterly hopeless for about the first semester. I'm not smart enough to be in college, and at the time I definitely didn't fit in anywhere, really. I wasn't a heavy partier, but not a bookworm, either. I just did my own thing for a while. I don't really know what turned things around, but second semester I was extremely happy. I've dated one person the entirety of my college career, and what a load of bullshit that turned out to be.
This certain someone that I knew from high school and I were together basically on the basis of I liked him and he liked my sex. Not cool, right? Well something major happened...if you want to know just ask, it's a little bit personal for a public post...and we ended up breaking up. I try to act like I'm numb and I don't have any feelings, but I still cry myself to sleep at least one night a week like a little bitch. I can't deal with my feelings in a healthy and normal way, that's what I should say.
I have a very uncertain life. Nothing in my life is permanent or lasting. Only a few good people remain. I think all the rest of us have fucked each other over. It really makes me feel worthless. I try to keep my head up but damnit life just keeps kicking me around. I've got this everlasting crush on a guy who lives really far away. I look forward to talking to him. That's lame, right? Yeah, I thought so.
Working and going to school is really not easy. Especially when I have a car that doesn't like to start. We just had to replace the transmission in November, which means I'm now even more in debt to my parents, on top of my student loans. I live paycheck to paycheck. I have a dollar and 85 cents to last me until this Friday. I don't eat like I should. I drink too much.
That ended up just being a big ol' rambling but...I'd like to hear from anyone who still uses their Livejournal. I think everyone should. It's good to write things down.
I started college at WVU in August of 2007. I felt completely and utterly hopeless for about the first semester. I'm not smart enough to be in college, and at the time I definitely didn't fit in anywhere, really. I wasn't a heavy partier, but not a bookworm, either. I just did my own thing for a while. I don't really know what turned things around, but second semester I was extremely happy. I've dated one person the entirety of my college career, and what a load of bullshit that turned out to be.
This certain someone that I knew from high school and I were together basically on the basis of I liked him and he liked my sex. Not cool, right? Well something major happened...if you want to know just ask, it's a little bit personal for a public post...and we ended up breaking up. I try to act like I'm numb and I don't have any feelings, but I still cry myself to sleep at least one night a week like a little bitch. I can't deal with my feelings in a healthy and normal way, that's what I should say.
I have a very uncertain life. Nothing in my life is permanent or lasting. Only a few good people remain. I think all the rest of us have fucked each other over. It really makes me feel worthless. I try to keep my head up but damnit life just keeps kicking me around. I've got this everlasting crush on a guy who lives really far away. I look forward to talking to him. That's lame, right? Yeah, I thought so.
Working and going to school is really not easy. Especially when I have a car that doesn't like to start. We just had to replace the transmission in November, which means I'm now even more in debt to my parents, on top of my student loans. I live paycheck to paycheck. I have a dollar and 85 cents to last me until this Friday. I don't eat like I should. I drink too much.
That ended up just being a big ol' rambling but...I'd like to hear from anyone who still uses their Livejournal. I think everyone should. It's good to write things down.