(no subject)
since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;
wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world
my blood approves,
and kisses are a better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don't cry
-the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids' flutter which says
we are for each other: then
laugh leaning back in my arms
for life's not a paragraph
And death i think is no parenthesis
tomorrow is when my grandfather died. my grandmother went into the hospital today. i love her more than life. she is my mother. i don't know what i'd do without her. i can't even begin to think about it. i shouldn't be here. i don't remember her ever looking like she does in that picture, but that was so long ago. i think of her and i see this little old lady who's small and fragile but a chainsmoking hardass.
i have cramps. suprise! menstruation graced my presents out of nowhere. i always love when that happens. i should of known today was going to be bad. i miss someone, a lot. i miss meredith. i miss my old house. my old bed. the couch. soon there will be none of this left. i guess it's a part of grown up. you lose things that mean so much. you can only have so many good days before it all goes to hell.