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Dear everyone and everybody,
The guy I like has rejected me for the millionth time. I didn't ask him out, didn't ask him for anything. He likes another girl. He's very happy and I don't blame him. This is the first time that he's come close to getting a girlfriend. There's a possibility that this girl likes him back. I am naturally happy for him, but at the same time, a great sadness fills my heart because he has rejected me once again.
It bothers me more, however, when people keep comparing me to her. It's only natural for people to do so, I understand, but it bothers me and calling me prettier/uglier than the other girl is in no way, shape, or form helpful to me, him, or her. As much as I wish to shun it and ignore it, there is at least one person who brings it up. Thinking about it depresses me and everytime I push it away, I feel that the thought is pushing me against a wall twice as hard.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm ready to give up on liking people, especially him, but part of me says that something good will happen if I keep trying. I've felt like I've had so many bad days and every day, I wish for that one good day to come. Everytime something bad happens to me, something good happens afterwards. I don't care how many good days there are to come, but I want one, and I hope it comes soon. But I know that nothing comes out of selfishly wishing for it...
So, in the mean time, while I wait for an answer to come, while I wait for my good day, please, whoever's out there, lend me your strength so that I can be a strong, patient person. Help me be someone that not only my friends here, such as Ao-sama, can look up to for their strength and courage and passion, but perhaps friends like Peaches, Adeann, David, and maybe even that guy I like, can look up to me. I want to be a more understanding person. I want to be someone that people can come to when they need someone's strength or guidance. I want to be someone that can always make people smile, no matter what the situation. I want to be someone that can bring everyone happiness. I know I can do it by myself, but with some of your help, whoever you are, I'll know for sure.
Thanks,
Gaby
The guy I like has rejected me for the millionth time. I didn't ask him out, didn't ask him for anything. He likes another girl. He's very happy and I don't blame him. This is the first time that he's come close to getting a girlfriend. There's a possibility that this girl likes him back. I am naturally happy for him, but at the same time, a great sadness fills my heart because he has rejected me once again.
It bothers me more, however, when people keep comparing me to her. It's only natural for people to do so, I understand, but it bothers me and calling me prettier/uglier than the other girl is in no way, shape, or form helpful to me, him, or her. As much as I wish to shun it and ignore it, there is at least one person who brings it up. Thinking about it depresses me and everytime I push it away, I feel that the thought is pushing me against a wall twice as hard.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm ready to give up on liking people, especially him, but part of me says that something good will happen if I keep trying. I've felt like I've had so many bad days and every day, I wish for that one good day to come. Everytime something bad happens to me, something good happens afterwards. I don't care how many good days there are to come, but I want one, and I hope it comes soon. But I know that nothing comes out of selfishly wishing for it...
So, in the mean time, while I wait for an answer to come, while I wait for my good day, please, whoever's out there, lend me your strength so that I can be a strong, patient person. Help me be someone that not only my friends here, such as Ao-sama, can look up to for their strength and courage and passion, but perhaps friends like Peaches, Adeann, David, and maybe even that guy I like, can look up to me. I want to be a more understanding person. I want to be someone that people can come to when they need someone's strength or guidance. I want to be someone that can always make people smile, no matter what the situation. I want to be someone that can bring everyone happiness. I know I can do it by myself, but with some of your help, whoever you are, I'll know for sure.
Thanks,
Gaby