It's past 3 am and I'm still far from sleep This is a habit that I can't break
idk whats wrong with me i feel like im slipping and fallling into my own trap because i dont know how to handle anything anymore...ive been hiding from everything and everyone the past 2 weeks because i dont wana feel or talk about anything and everything keeps getting worse....as soon as i snap out of the world i put myself in wen im fucked up i rememeber everything and it hurts 10 times more then it first did. last nite made me realize how alone i actually feel. it made me realize that i seriously fucked up in so many ways and now theres nothing i can do to repair it. im basically left alone with nobody. i thought by now id be fine but im seriously not. i really didnt want it to be like this an i didnt think it would be like this and it sucks so much. i feel like i have no control of anything anymore. i feel like im going to be like this forever and nothing is ever going to change. if things do stay like this i completely deserve it just because ever mistake and every little thing thats made shit harder is my fault....ughh i dont know what to do with myself anymore.