ugh....
man, Im Jealous of a Friend. okay, maybe jealous is the wrong word...idk what the word is then...but we were REALLY good friends when we met. we were close...closer then just about any of my other friends...and I could tell her anything. Things that I couldnt tell my other friends. but now, I feel like our friendship isnt as strong as it use to be. Like she found people to take my place in our friendship. idk...She says that im not being "replaced" or w/e but I still feel like I am. THEN I got my other friend talking about the guy I like. UGH! he calls her like EVERY FREAKING NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!! well at least it waht it seems like, cuz she's always like oh he said this he said that! blah blah...ugh I just wanna call him and tell him I like him soo much and never talk to him again...but that'd be so dumb. I mean, I WANT to talk to him, but im scared....he came by about a week or 2 ago, but yet he NEVER called withen about 3 months but yet he just shows up outta the blue! what the hell is up with that!?!?! ugh IDK!!!
-Manda-
Okay, I HAVE to tell you something. Im sorry, but yes what Im talking about up there is about OUR friendship. I still feel it. idk why. I dont want to feel it, but I do. but its NOT, I repeat NOT your fault so DONT EVEN THINK IT. okay? plz promise me you won't think that. IDK if you would think it, but I just dont want you to. I love you so god damn much. Your like my sister. hell you are my sister, just not by blood. I really dont know why I feel like this though...I really dont. I just think its cuz Im "Depressed" and as soon as I get "better" I wont think it anymore. and its not just you. god I hope you dont think I just think this about you. I think about this with most of my friends...hell I think that about..you know who. my "Him" lol maybe not exactly the same way, but I think that he found a better person to talk to "her" but yeah, I LOVE YOU SOOOOO SOOOOO DAMN MUCH and dont forget that. but I think taht I just convinced myself that everything that I typed up there, is wrong and you didnt replace me with someone else. idk but anyways I love ya and you better know it cuz It wont EVER EVER change! :D
-Manda-
Okay, I HAVE to tell you something. Im sorry, but yes what Im talking about up there is about OUR friendship. I still feel it. idk why. I dont want to feel it, but I do. but its NOT, I repeat NOT your fault so DONT EVEN THINK IT. okay? plz promise me you won't think that. IDK if you would think it, but I just dont want you to. I love you so god damn much. Your like my sister. hell you are my sister, just not by blood. I really dont know why I feel like this though...I really dont. I just think its cuz Im "Depressed" and as soon as I get "better" I wont think it anymore. and its not just you. god I hope you dont think I just think this about you. I think about this with most of my friends...hell I think that about..you know who. my "Him" lol maybe not exactly the same way, but I think that he found a better person to talk to "her" but yeah, I LOVE YOU SOOOOO SOOOOO DAMN MUCH and dont forget that. but I think taht I just convinced myself that everything that I typed up there, is wrong and you didnt replace me with someone else. idk but anyways I love ya and you better know it cuz It wont EVER EVER change! :D