officially done. thanks to those of you who contributed...
so i met someone awesome. he could read me like a book. but of course what happens with every other guy i meet, they decide to stop talking to me. what bothers me the most is the fact he initiated the relationship. hes the one that wanted to make it official, hes the one that flipped my claddagh ring, hes the one that wanted to see me everyday, hes the one that wanted to hang out w/ my friends and go out, hes the one that wanted to try to figure me out. hes the one that missed me all the time. yet im the one thats fucking crying over the fact i havent seen him since friday/saturday @ 5am when i left his house. and the fact that i talked to him a few times that day, then he went to brandons and disappeared and i didnt talk to him again til sunday when he randomly msgd me on yahoo on my phone then that stopped at 630 sunday night. i've yet to hear from him and its 10pm on wednesday. he was evicted from his apt and was supposed to be out this morning at 6, so he had plans to leave tuesday. i dont know where he is. hes been on yahoo and hasnt messaged me, hes been on myspace and hasnt messaged me. im fucking over this bullshit.
because of tj, im done. i thought he was going to prove me wrong for once, that i shouldnt give up. but this ended up proving in my favor. i knew i was going to get hurt. and to think he was the one who thought he was going to. i think what i miss the most is falling asleep in his arms while watching great movies. or wakin up to him next to me. or just cuddling and talking. the last thing he said to me was that he was missing me real bad. i actually believe him. now its obvious how untrue that last statement he made to me was.
i guess its time to turn around the claddagh ring again, or stop wearing it completely. i need some type of good luck ring or some bullshit.
but yea im officially done. im quite sure my heart cant go through another one of these emotional rollercoasters.
i dont understand really. im a great girlfriend. amazing actually. quite the catch. but apparently thats not good enough. but this has ONLY happened to ME. none of my friends know what i go through because they havent had 99% of the guys they were interested in/going out w/ or dating complete disappear like pussies. i just wish they would have grown some fucking balls and told me...hey this isnt working....not just fucking leave. thats FUCKED up. karma's a bitch. i hope they get hurt like they've hurt me. but i dont deserve this bullshit. so im done.
thanks tj gaetke, for being one of the few guys i've actually let in, because i thought you were different, only to find out that you lied. you hurt me, and you're just like all the rest. i was hoping that wasnt true. but its apparent now.
thanks for your contribution. its opened my eyes.
because of tj, im done. i thought he was going to prove me wrong for once, that i shouldnt give up. but this ended up proving in my favor. i knew i was going to get hurt. and to think he was the one who thought he was going to. i think what i miss the most is falling asleep in his arms while watching great movies. or wakin up to him next to me. or just cuddling and talking. the last thing he said to me was that he was missing me real bad. i actually believe him. now its obvious how untrue that last statement he made to me was.
i guess its time to turn around the claddagh ring again, or stop wearing it completely. i need some type of good luck ring or some bullshit.
but yea im officially done. im quite sure my heart cant go through another one of these emotional rollercoasters.
i dont understand really. im a great girlfriend. amazing actually. quite the catch. but apparently thats not good enough. but this has ONLY happened to ME. none of my friends know what i go through because they havent had 99% of the guys they were interested in/going out w/ or dating complete disappear like pussies. i just wish they would have grown some fucking balls and told me...hey this isnt working....not just fucking leave. thats FUCKED up. karma's a bitch. i hope they get hurt like they've hurt me. but i dont deserve this bullshit. so im done.
thanks tj gaetke, for being one of the few guys i've actually let in, because i thought you were different, only to find out that you lied. you hurt me, and you're just like all the rest. i was hoping that wasnt true. but its apparent now.
thanks for your contribution. its opened my eyes.