i hate it here.
life is hella shitty.
i've had a couple amazing days. fun as hell.
included. islands. beerfest x2. miniature golf. camelot. movies.
but of course i have to return here.
i'd rather be living on the streets. seriously. not in corona of course. fucking ghetto.
i'd say that i wish i could move out.
i can.
i just dont want to waste all my money seeing as i dont have a job right now.
and of course when i do get my own place. it wont be in corona.
it'll be in OC. ha.
closer to the people that i hang out w/ the most.
i have to register for school. UGH. shitty as fuck.
other news. my parents hate me.
with a passion.
who wouldnt.
im sure my brothers and sister in laws do too.
but i dont really care.
they all talk shit behind my back. and tell my mom things that i believe im telling them in privacy.
guess not.
all the people that wanted to hang out because im leaving...could give 2 shits now.
oh well. i dont really care. no one likes me anyways.
i've decided that if anyone does like me. its just a phase. because it goes away rather quickly.
not only am i a phase. im a failure. at least in my families eyes. not that i really give a flying fuck what they think.
black sheep of the family. nothing i do is ever good enough. for them or anyone else.
ha i guess it would make them proud that the only way i can have a life that i myself enjoy is to lie to them.
but thats not my fault. if they let me do the things i wanted then we wouldnt have this problem.
but whatever.
fuck them.
my family is just full of fucking control freaks that wish i never existed.
and i mean that whole heartedly. its the honest fucking truth.
i dont want to be home today.
but no one wants to see me.
never do.
FUCK YOU.
i've had a couple amazing days. fun as hell.
included. islands. beerfest x2. miniature golf. camelot. movies.
but of course i have to return here.
i'd rather be living on the streets. seriously. not in corona of course. fucking ghetto.
i'd say that i wish i could move out.
i can.
i just dont want to waste all my money seeing as i dont have a job right now.
and of course when i do get my own place. it wont be in corona.
it'll be in OC. ha.
closer to the people that i hang out w/ the most.
i have to register for school. UGH. shitty as fuck.
other news. my parents hate me.
with a passion.
who wouldnt.
im sure my brothers and sister in laws do too.
but i dont really care.
they all talk shit behind my back. and tell my mom things that i believe im telling them in privacy.
guess not.
all the people that wanted to hang out because im leaving...could give 2 shits now.
oh well. i dont really care. no one likes me anyways.
i've decided that if anyone does like me. its just a phase. because it goes away rather quickly.
not only am i a phase. im a failure. at least in my families eyes. not that i really give a flying fuck what they think.
black sheep of the family. nothing i do is ever good enough. for them or anyone else.
ha i guess it would make them proud that the only way i can have a life that i myself enjoy is to lie to them.
but thats not my fault. if they let me do the things i wanted then we wouldnt have this problem.
but whatever.
fuck them.
my family is just full of fucking control freaks that wish i never existed.
and i mean that whole heartedly. its the honest fucking truth.
i dont want to be home today.
but no one wants to see me.
never do.
FUCK YOU.