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I really want to get the lens. It's $600 secondhand and that's very cheap for a lens but it's still such a hard decision. Because I am so broke. I have never been so broke in my life. But I want it so so so bad. I want to create an epic film of my exchange experience. Of my experience in North America. I want it so bad I actually feel like I could just burst into tears right now. I want to get an apprenticeship and learn something. Go for a film course. I love studying what I'm studying but I want to do something else too. I would work to get the money but I'm leaving so soon and I have to study for finals and do my projects????? I REALLY want this. There I've said it. I've finally said/typed this out. After pathetically trying to talk to my mum about it and getting that piercing 'NO' of my childhood. It scares me every time. Every single time. I don't even know what I'm typing anymore. I'm aiming for minimal editing and just free writing because that's just better.