What If....
Lately I've been thinking about my future a lot. There's SO many important choices I have to make in the near future. I've already started applying for scholarships and checking out colleges!!! Next year there I'll make so many memories: Homecoming, Football games, parties, sadies, hanging with my friends, BOYS, and junior PROM! As much fun as this year is going to be, it's going to be twice as hard. This year will be so crucial to my future. Am I taking the right classes? Will I be totally overwhelmed with work? What if my GPA drops? And don't forget about all the testing we have in front of us (SAT's...OMFG)!!!! It's hard to believe, but in no time i'll be an adult. On my own, taking care of my self completely, with SO many responsibilies. I've also been thinking about love. In about 8 years I want to be married, or atleast in a committed relationship. But how do you know that he is "THE ONE". What if your settling before you meet the one your truelly meant to be with? Is there even such thing as a soul mate? After my experience with my parents, I don't know if I even will be able to trust someone that way. I always think about what I would do if I could change decisions I've made in the past. Would my life be different....would it even be better? I'm sick of telling myself that things will get better, only to be disappointed when they just get worse. I hate telling myself that tomorrow will be different. Mainly i'm tired trying to please everyone. I feel like i'm always trying to be someone different just to get their approval, yet I never do. All my life i've been told to appreciate what I have, there are so many people who have it far worse than me. But I can't help thinking about all the people who have it better than me...what did they do so differently. I think that reading this stupid AP psych book, Reviving Ophelia: Saving the Selves of Adolescent Girls, has got me thinking about my life. Somehow I can't help but believe that somewhere in my life I stopped being who I am, and started being who i'm supposed to be. I guess there's always that chance that tomorrow will be different...
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