Happy and unhappy at the same time.....
There's a lot goin on with me lately. I have been overall happy the past few days. I think our splitting was a mutually good thing, although neither one of us may have realized it at the time. I have not talked to him since. Yes I was upset with him, but he told me that we would be friends. I said that he would have to make the first move and unfortunately that has not happened yet. I'm relaly kinda sick of the whole "let's be friends still" when the person doesn't intend on following through... oh well, what can you do....:-/ It just sucks that we shared so much together and now we are not even friends. Even though we may never be together again, I will always have a place in my heart for him just as I still have a place in my heart for someone else. Aside from everything..... Some opportunities (not necessarily having to do w/ guys, just in general) have opened up to me and I just cannot bring myself to grasp them. It's not that I don't want to, it's just that when it comes right down to it, I don't follow through. I guess everything will work out in the end, right? I hope so! I just wish something could break for me for once.
find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back when you hang up on him or calls you just because. who will lay under the stars and listen to your heartbeat or will stay awake just to watch you sleep..wait for the guy who pursues you, who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world even when you are in sweatpants. who holds your hand in front of his friends who thinks you're the prettiest when you have no make up on and insists on holding you around your waist..the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you..the one who turns to his friends & says "yeah thats her"
I really wish I could just find this for myself. Most of my friends have already found this, but for some reason it's a problem for me. Sometimes I wonder if it is a problem WITH me. It just hurts so bad to lose the people that you really care about and can't do anything about it. There are nights when I just cry... wondering if I will ever find the right person, cuz right now it doesnt seem like I ever will. I just want a guy that knows how to treat a woman, loves me for who I really am, and cares for me in the same way that I care for them. I really haven't found someone who has all of that yet. It seems that most of them don't care for me the way that I do them. ::sigh:: I just wish things could look up for me for once....
find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back when you hang up on him or calls you just because. who will lay under the stars and listen to your heartbeat or will stay awake just to watch you sleep..wait for the guy who pursues you, who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world even when you are in sweatpants. who holds your hand in front of his friends who thinks you're the prettiest when you have no make up on and insists on holding you around your waist..the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you..the one who turns to his friends & says "yeah thats her"
I really wish I could just find this for myself. Most of my friends have already found this, but for some reason it's a problem for me. Sometimes I wonder if it is a problem WITH me. It just hurts so bad to lose the people that you really care about and can't do anything about it. There are nights when I just cry... wondering if I will ever find the right person, cuz right now it doesnt seem like I ever will. I just want a guy that knows how to treat a woman, loves me for who I really am, and cares for me in the same way that I care for them. I really haven't found someone who has all of that yet. It seems that most of them don't care for me the way that I do them. ::sigh:: I just wish things could look up for me for once....