I've never wanted something rational

[sugarpop85]

Sooo... christmas was awesome. I spent the whole weekend at the boys house. I fell asleep at like 10 pm because that's how I roll. At midnight I woke up to him playing with my hand. I thought he was getting fresh har har har so I slapped him off until I realized something cold was on my finger. He whispered in my ear "So are you gonna marry me or what?" I freaked out as I snapped awake. The ring is so freaking gorgeous. It's an emerald cut diamond on a white gold band. I LOVE it. The stone belonged to his great grandmother, and then his mother and she let me have it. It's so freaking great. The best part of the whole night though was after he woke me up I just sat up and hugged him and his heart was pounding like he was about to die. As if I'd say no. It's kind of crazy, I mean we've only been together now about 10 months but this one was different. I just knew everything a whole lot sooner. And I'm pretty godamn sure I've made a much better decision this time around. He's perfect. It's gonna be a long engagement though, I wanna finish school first. So we shall be hitched properly in a year or so. We are gonna do it in New York, and honeymoon in London. Woot woot. I wanna go see Robert Smith's birthplace.

And we are moving into our new beautiful apartment on a golf course this friday. I cannot freaking wait. I've started working there in the office full time now, so that has incredibly altered our rent. We will be living in the awesomest place in town for soooo freaking cheap. If anyone had told me just how incredible life would be this time last year I would have laughed in their face. I have a very cushy job, as does the fellow, I'm going to be living on the ritzy side of the fence, I get to wake up everyday happy next to the male me, and I actually haven't had a fucking panic attack in almost a year. Haha I'm normal. Holy shit, I'm healthy. Happy New Year you guys. I love you fuckers =D