A Memory...
i found something that i wrote long ago, when me and
...a certain guy were going out. at that time, he was
pressuring me to have sex with him. i was a confused little
girl back then, but i knew i should wait to have sex...
i warn you, it gets a little gruesome. its about a lifes decision and how to deal with it. then its about life and how to start over again from making a bad decision....theres nothing too personal in it. i just wrote it one night long ago when i couldnt sleep. and now im sharing it...
"What is wrong, what is right
temptation is killing
things feel good
yes, or no
one little choice then its over
wrong
its not over...
paranoia takes a stand
fear, hurt, know what you've done is wrong
confused, dizzy from thinking
but the clock is ticking
and you hear voices
ones laughing, the others crying
dying of humiliation
inflation to your head as you think
what to do, how to do
go left, go right
put up the fight
do whats right
take a stand
dont fall for a man
keep in touch with yourself
wait or do it safe
play the game, or play it hard
throw the punch or pin 'em down
run, or run the extra mile
be bold, stand straight
beat the day, not the night
smile, frown
emotions flearing
hearts beating immensly
but i ignore it...
cant stand to see it
dont want to hear it
feel it
block it out
keep it out
dont want to get hurt
dont want to take the dirt
its filth, its clean
dont want to think about the boy thats mean
keep him tide up
lock it up in my brain
better yet, in the lane
run it over
just like road kill
guts, blood
but you dont care
its not in you anymore
no more fear
then you think you can live now
close your eyes and its still there
pictures, images
shadows, figures
get thm out
but how
the pain is there
here
walk it out
breath, cool down
stretch it out
stop the running
jog it out
but wait...
...this is life
open your eyes
because there is beauty
senes like a movie
you wonder what life was before
during, and now
you've seen, looked, viewed, and scaned the bad
what good can come out
tell me now, scream it loud
i want to hear it, i need to hear it
this time im not going to fear it
lock it
i want to see it, feel it
know it
study it
keep it
love it"
this is what i mean about being lost.
i was lost then.
there were things that i could not handle.
thats why i turned to god, because we are not strong enough to
handle life on our own.
Question of the day: Have you ever had a problem or a situation where you knew you could not handle by yourself and you wanted to figure it out so badly?
Something to think about: The name Jesus is so powerful, that when you feel scared and you say his name, Jesus, you'll feel and have comfort.
...a certain guy were going out. at that time, he was
pressuring me to have sex with him. i was a confused little
girl back then, but i knew i should wait to have sex...
i warn you, it gets a little gruesome. its about a lifes decision and how to deal with it. then its about life and how to start over again from making a bad decision....theres nothing too personal in it. i just wrote it one night long ago when i couldnt sleep. and now im sharing it...
"What is wrong, what is right
temptation is killing
things feel good
yes, or no
one little choice then its over
wrong
its not over...
paranoia takes a stand
fear, hurt, know what you've done is wrong
confused, dizzy from thinking
but the clock is ticking
and you hear voices
ones laughing, the others crying
dying of humiliation
inflation to your head as you think
what to do, how to do
go left, go right
put up the fight
do whats right
take a stand
dont fall for a man
keep in touch with yourself
wait or do it safe
play the game, or play it hard
throw the punch or pin 'em down
run, or run the extra mile
be bold, stand straight
beat the day, not the night
smile, frown
emotions flearing
hearts beating immensly
but i ignore it...
cant stand to see it
dont want to hear it
feel it
block it out
keep it out
dont want to get hurt
dont want to take the dirt
its filth, its clean
dont want to think about the boy thats mean
keep him tide up
lock it up in my brain
better yet, in the lane
run it over
just like road kill
guts, blood
but you dont care
its not in you anymore
no more fear
then you think you can live now
close your eyes and its still there
pictures, images
shadows, figures
get thm out
but how
the pain is there
here
walk it out
breath, cool down
stretch it out
stop the running
jog it out
but wait...
...this is life
open your eyes
because there is beauty
senes like a movie
you wonder what life was before
during, and now
you've seen, looked, viewed, and scaned the bad
what good can come out
tell me now, scream it loud
i want to hear it, i need to hear it
this time im not going to fear it
lock it
i want to see it, feel it
know it
study it
keep it
love it"
this is what i mean about being lost.
i was lost then.
there were things that i could not handle.
thats why i turned to god, because we are not strong enough to
handle life on our own.
Question of the day: Have you ever had a problem or a situation where you knew you could not handle by yourself and you wanted to figure it out so badly?
Something to think about: The name Jesus is so powerful, that when you feel scared and you say his name, Jesus, you'll feel and have comfort.