"Where is my master the Rebel Prince?"
When I no longer enjoy sliding at Balsam Pits, I'll know it's time to pack it in. Aside from the fact that you couldn't see a damn thing as the wind was coming directly at you as you went down, whipping blowing snow into every available facial orifice, it was good cold fun. I stuck with the crazy carpet of black death, but an unsuccessful attempt at a shopping cart run was also made. I believe I have some video of that. Post sliding we hung out at Boston Pizza for a bit, though we lost avenray and tjernobyl on the way, thanks to the original location of choice being closed. Eating spicy pad thai while still being wet and shivery made for interesting alternating layers of warm and cold. Somehow, being delivered home by way of a crazy van ride through slippery snow covered streets while listening to surf music was an appropriate finale.
I was an inadvertent party to a conversation between a english accented geology student and the somewhat anxious and rather sloshed fellow student she was comforting about upcoming exams in the washroom. The things you overhear while waiting for the sink.
Speaking of british accents, I was asked by a woman whom I was speaking to at the Bata Shoe museum if I was british. I'm not quite sure where she got that idea from. Other things I've been accused of being while down in Toronto which I am not: underage, polish, and a ballerina.
1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before? Moved away from Thunder Bay, worked as a telesurvey drone, saw The National Ballet.
2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I actually don't remember mine/if I made one, so, probably not. I usually do make one though, and plan to this coming year.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? My stepsister, though we aren't really very close.
4. Did anyone close to you die? No. The three years before, it seemed like once a year. This year, no.
5. What countries did you visit? I haven't left Canada this year, unfortunately.
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005? More confidence and decisiveness about my next personal goal. Less chaos in my relationship and living situations. More time spent with friends, having adventures, being outdoors, and meditating. More performing and creative pursuits.
7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? Seeing as it's just one, Thursday the 20th of January, when Jay came home after disappearing for awhile and having broken up with me during the interval. We didn't get back together right away, but I knew it would work out that day. I learned the meaning of what it is to be grateful.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Stopping being a nutcase after a winter of depression.
9. What was your biggest failure? Not pushing myself harder to get the things I want.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? I caught something my first few weeks in T.O., and was pretty under the weather in October. Other than that, I burnt my arm on a cake pan (leaving a sexy non-disfiguring scar) and fell down the stairs. No, really - it was an accident, I swear.
11. What was the best thing you bought? Power malt, bubble tea, and a staff rush ticket so Jay could come see Swan Lake with me. Maybe also my half-price-day, red candy-cane-striped sundress from the Sally Anne.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? My parents for supporting my move even though they disagreed with it.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Everything about flipping New Orleans.
14. Where did most of your money go? Bills, food.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Getting to Toronto and seeing Jay after three months. Coming home for christmas.
16. What song will always remind you of 2005? The Ship Song by Nick Cave
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Mostly happier.
ii. thinner or fatter? Same.
iii. richer or poorer? Richer.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Acting, getting outdoors, calling people, art, school, traveling.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Being self destructive, being depressed, being torn, working at Marketprobe.
20. How will you be spending Christmas? Between my two families, in Thunder Bay. Hopefully with lots of visits from friends, and spending some quality time in the great outdoors with Jay.
21. At any point in this past year did you do something that you consider to be completely out of your usual character? Moving to Toronto.
22. Did you fall in love in 2005? Yes. Many times over.
23. How many one-night stands? In May I had a bit of a fling with a guy who dropped into town for a couple of days... more of a two night stand, really.
24. What was your favorite TV program? Didn't watch teevee, except for some downloaded shows. So I guess it was the IMAX/Nova show on Einstein and quantum physics. That and Spaced. Oh yeah.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? No one I know.
26. What was the best book you read? I really enjoyed 'Darwina' by Robert Charles Wilson, 'Diaspora' by Greg Egan, 'The Years of Rice and Salt' by Kim Stanley Robinson and the biography of Florence Nightingale by Cecil Woodham-Smith - but the best was 'Independent People' by Halldor Laxness.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Nick Cave
28. What did you want and get? Love.
29. What did you want and not get? A good opportunity to get back on stage. Real solid hope that there's a future for us beyond Toronto, and soon.
30. What was your favorite film of this year? Not sure.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? Turned 20, hung out with Hanna, Phebes and John, very low key.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Not being in the midst of so much bloody chaos. More success with school and acting. A good trip somewhere. Some camping, and generally more getting outdoors. Less emotional turmoil. Some more motherf*cking saunas.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005? Girly~raggamuffin~thrift~woodsprincess~casual.
34. What kept you sane? Food. Swimming in multiple Great Lakes. Talking with friends during the rough and the smooth. Having someone smart and kind and big and warm to curl up next to at the end of the day.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? The voice on 'The Current'. I don't know.
36. What political issue stirred you the most? Not sure. I regularly yell at the radio during news breaks.
37. Who did you miss? Jay for three months, than everyone else for four.
38. Who was the best new person you met? I've met a bunch of nice T.O. people, from coworkers to pan handlers, but none whom I'm stuck to yet.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005? Love may possibly conquer all, and it's a lot harder to lose myself than I thought.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year? I love questions like this, so I over-answer:
"I turned my face away
And dreamed about you"
"But all I need is a half decent breakfast
And I'll be back at it, dirty and reckless"
"Oh I can see him now
Though it's so far away
Amongst the roving crowd
Going the other way"
"I got a head full of ideas
That are drivin' me insane"
"If you don't stand for something you will fall
for anything"
~
A random moment of antisocial bitchiness from yesterday:
Some days, I feel like being totally standoffish and offensive. Not purposely cruel, but just to stop even trying to be civil for civil's sake. My normal self who really likes most people I know, and many very much; cares about other's feelings and enjoys good company; loves fiercely to the point of spontaneous internal combustion vanishes in a puff of coal black smoke. Sometimes I have a frightening urge to tell everyone, aside from a select few, to leave me the fuck alone and come back when they've got something more interesting to say. The list of select few might not contain who you'd assume. Today I don't belong to anybody.
Ah, but what's true on one side of the glass is not so on the other.
Sunday, Sunday, Sunday... has been decreed to be a ice skating/crafting day. If either activity interests you, or you particularly enjoy the company of seileurt and me, then do join us. Rink location/cozy place to drink tea and work on crafty stuff (perhaps watch movies as well?) yet to be set, but it's going to be an afternoonish type thing. Sharpen your skates, gather your supplies and let us know.
I was an inadvertent party to a conversation between a english accented geology student and the somewhat anxious and rather sloshed fellow student she was comforting about upcoming exams in the washroom. The things you overhear while waiting for the sink.
Speaking of british accents, I was asked by a woman whom I was speaking to at the Bata Shoe museum if I was british. I'm not quite sure where she got that idea from. Other things I've been accused of being while down in Toronto which I am not: underage, polish, and a ballerina.
1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before? Moved away from Thunder Bay, worked as a telesurvey drone, saw The National Ballet.
2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I actually don't remember mine/if I made one, so, probably not. I usually do make one though, and plan to this coming year.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? My stepsister, though we aren't really very close.
4. Did anyone close to you die? No. The three years before, it seemed like once a year. This year, no.
5. What countries did you visit? I haven't left Canada this year, unfortunately.
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005? More confidence and decisiveness about my next personal goal. Less chaos in my relationship and living situations. More time spent with friends, having adventures, being outdoors, and meditating. More performing and creative pursuits.
7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? Seeing as it's just one, Thursday the 20th of January, when Jay came home after disappearing for awhile and having broken up with me during the interval. We didn't get back together right away, but I knew it would work out that day. I learned the meaning of what it is to be grateful.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Stopping being a nutcase after a winter of depression.
9. What was your biggest failure? Not pushing myself harder to get the things I want.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? I caught something my first few weeks in T.O., and was pretty under the weather in October. Other than that, I burnt my arm on a cake pan (leaving a sexy non-disfiguring scar) and fell down the stairs. No, really - it was an accident, I swear.
11. What was the best thing you bought? Power malt, bubble tea, and a staff rush ticket so Jay could come see Swan Lake with me. Maybe also my half-price-day, red candy-cane-striped sundress from the Sally Anne.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? My parents for supporting my move even though they disagreed with it.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Everything about flipping New Orleans.
14. Where did most of your money go? Bills, food.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Getting to Toronto and seeing Jay after three months. Coming home for christmas.
16. What song will always remind you of 2005? The Ship Song by Nick Cave
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Mostly happier.
ii. thinner or fatter? Same.
iii. richer or poorer? Richer.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Acting, getting outdoors, calling people, art, school, traveling.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Being self destructive, being depressed, being torn, working at Marketprobe.
20. How will you be spending Christmas? Between my two families, in Thunder Bay. Hopefully with lots of visits from friends, and spending some quality time in the great outdoors with Jay.
21. At any point in this past year did you do something that you consider to be completely out of your usual character? Moving to Toronto.
22. Did you fall in love in 2005? Yes. Many times over.
23. How many one-night stands? In May I had a bit of a fling with a guy who dropped into town for a couple of days... more of a two night stand, really.
24. What was your favorite TV program? Didn't watch teevee, except for some downloaded shows. So I guess it was the IMAX/Nova show on Einstein and quantum physics. That and Spaced. Oh yeah.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? No one I know.
26. What was the best book you read? I really enjoyed 'Darwina' by Robert Charles Wilson, 'Diaspora' by Greg Egan, 'The Years of Rice and Salt' by Kim Stanley Robinson and the biography of Florence Nightingale by Cecil Woodham-Smith - but the best was 'Independent People' by Halldor Laxness.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Nick Cave
28. What did you want and get? Love.
29. What did you want and not get? A good opportunity to get back on stage. Real solid hope that there's a future for us beyond Toronto, and soon.
30. What was your favorite film of this year? Not sure.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? Turned 20, hung out with Hanna, Phebes and John, very low key.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Not being in the midst of so much bloody chaos. More success with school and acting. A good trip somewhere. Some camping, and generally more getting outdoors. Less emotional turmoil. Some more motherf*cking saunas.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005? Girly~raggamuffin~thrift~woodsprincess~casual.
34. What kept you sane? Food. Swimming in multiple Great Lakes. Talking with friends during the rough and the smooth. Having someone smart and kind and big and warm to curl up next to at the end of the day.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? The voice on 'The Current'. I don't know.
36. What political issue stirred you the most? Not sure. I regularly yell at the radio during news breaks.
37. Who did you miss? Jay for three months, than everyone else for four.
38. Who was the best new person you met? I've met a bunch of nice T.O. people, from coworkers to pan handlers, but none whom I'm stuck to yet.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005? Love may possibly conquer all, and it's a lot harder to lose myself than I thought.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year? I love questions like this, so I over-answer:
"I turned my face away
And dreamed about you"
"But all I need is a half decent breakfast
And I'll be back at it, dirty and reckless"
"Oh I can see him now
Though it's so far away
Amongst the roving crowd
Going the other way"
"I got a head full of ideas
That are drivin' me insane"
"If you don't stand for something you will fall
for anything"
~
A random moment of antisocial bitchiness from yesterday:
Some days, I feel like being totally standoffish and offensive. Not purposely cruel, but just to stop even trying to be civil for civil's sake. My normal self who really likes most people I know, and many very much; cares about other's feelings and enjoys good company; loves fiercely to the point of spontaneous internal combustion vanishes in a puff of coal black smoke. Sometimes I have a frightening urge to tell everyone, aside from a select few, to leave me the fuck alone and come back when they've got something more interesting to say. The list of select few might not contain who you'd assume. Today I don't belong to anybody.
Ah, but what's true on one side of the glass is not so on the other.
Sunday, Sunday, Sunday... has been decreed to be a ice skating/crafting day. If either activity interests you, or you particularly enjoy the company of seileurt and me, then do join us. Rink location/cozy place to drink tea and work on crafty stuff (perhaps watch movies as well?) yet to be set, but it's going to be an afternoonish type thing. Sharpen your skates, gather your supplies and let us know.