what the fuck
ugh.....i'm crying right now cuz my mom made me feel bad, made me think about....shit.
my parents might be moving to Eagan Minnesota, because my dad MIGHT get a job there. and my mom's making me feel bad because i don't wanna fucking go.
i go to school here, i have a few friends here, the love of my life is here. why the FUCK should i go to minnesota?
AND! when i start crying she gets mad at me! she tells me that she's not giving up a good job somewhere just cuz i'm crying. I'M NOT FUCKING MOVING 21 HOURS AWAY TO MAKE MY PARENTS HAPPY! no fucking way. i would've moved out somewhere along the line so why not now? GET OVER IT! ugh omg....
She thinks it would be a dead end for me to stay here, that i wouldn't go to school, etc. that me and Ryan couldn't afford an apartment. well GUESS WHAT?! then i'm going to fucking save every cent i can and i'm moving out BEFORE my dad gets the job. what then? she couldn't do SHIT! oh man do i just wanna get the fuck out of my house right now. she doesn't wanna say no to a job because i'm gunna cry. SHE DOESN'T FUCKING HAVE TO! she told me a week ago that i was going to be 19 (which i turned 19 yesterday) and that I could decide. NOT HER! me! and i decided. I'M NOT GOING. no matter what.
she doesn't wanna leave me here? i'm not going to a place where it's perpetual winter....where there's nothing and no one i know. i'm not leaving Ryan, and matt and Steph and amie and steve and everyone else, my job and school. i'm not leaving the familiar. i'm not leaving. i always thought i'd jump at the chance to get out of attleboro.
but i'm not jumping....it's more like i'm burying myself to get away from the fact that i might be forced to move. i will chain myself to my bed if they try.
ohhhhhhhh man.....this fucking sucks. why'd she have to be such a bitch? she tells me all the time that i should move out and shit and now i wanna fucking STAY! and live here with Ryan and she gets all upset. she said she's not leaving me behind unless i have a plan. so i will come up with a plan. then she can't say no. and i know my dad will say "oh i'm not gunna go if Katie doesn't" OH FUCKING WELL i'm a BIG girl i can live on my own if i have to. everyone's gotta grow up sometime. so i'm growing up. i can make my own decisions. if i wanna move fucking halfway across the country someday, let me do it when I'M ready. not when you are.
I wish Ryan were home so i could talk to him....so he could hold me and tell me everything's gunna be okay. cuz it's all going to be okay it just depends on when my parents are going to face the fact that i'm not going. even if my dad threatens not to take the job cuz of me, i'm still not going.
I'm going to stop complaining now but it was good to get alllllll that shit out.
my parents might be moving to Eagan Minnesota, because my dad MIGHT get a job there. and my mom's making me feel bad because i don't wanna fucking go.
i go to school here, i have a few friends here, the love of my life is here. why the FUCK should i go to minnesota?
AND! when i start crying she gets mad at me! she tells me that she's not giving up a good job somewhere just cuz i'm crying. I'M NOT FUCKING MOVING 21 HOURS AWAY TO MAKE MY PARENTS HAPPY! no fucking way. i would've moved out somewhere along the line so why not now? GET OVER IT! ugh omg....
She thinks it would be a dead end for me to stay here, that i wouldn't go to school, etc. that me and Ryan couldn't afford an apartment. well GUESS WHAT?! then i'm going to fucking save every cent i can and i'm moving out BEFORE my dad gets the job. what then? she couldn't do SHIT! oh man do i just wanna get the fuck out of my house right now. she doesn't wanna say no to a job because i'm gunna cry. SHE DOESN'T FUCKING HAVE TO! she told me a week ago that i was going to be 19 (which i turned 19 yesterday) and that I could decide. NOT HER! me! and i decided. I'M NOT GOING. no matter what.
she doesn't wanna leave me here? i'm not going to a place where it's perpetual winter....where there's nothing and no one i know. i'm not leaving Ryan, and matt and Steph and amie and steve and everyone else, my job and school. i'm not leaving the familiar. i'm not leaving. i always thought i'd jump at the chance to get out of attleboro.
but i'm not jumping....it's more like i'm burying myself to get away from the fact that i might be forced to move. i will chain myself to my bed if they try.
ohhhhhhhh man.....this fucking sucks. why'd she have to be such a bitch? she tells me all the time that i should move out and shit and now i wanna fucking STAY! and live here with Ryan and she gets all upset. she said she's not leaving me behind unless i have a plan. so i will come up with a plan. then she can't say no. and i know my dad will say "oh i'm not gunna go if Katie doesn't" OH FUCKING WELL i'm a BIG girl i can live on my own if i have to. everyone's gotta grow up sometime. so i'm growing up. i can make my own decisions. if i wanna move fucking halfway across the country someday, let me do it when I'M ready. not when you are.
I wish Ryan were home so i could talk to him....so he could hold me and tell me everything's gunna be okay. cuz it's all going to be okay it just depends on when my parents are going to face the fact that i'm not going. even if my dad threatens not to take the job cuz of me, i'm still not going.
I'm going to stop complaining now but it was good to get alllllll that shit out.