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[sugarnothoney]

I've been so bored being cooped up all day for three days. All I had been doing was sitting on a couch, reading, and watching TV. It was actually really nice to go back to school and see everyone again. After all, I had desired interaction with anyone outside of my family. So boring days, you see. But it kind of made me realize how different I am from everyone else. Yes, I know this sounds stupid, but that's how I felt. I'm sitting there at lunch, talking to Maddison, sharing stories of when we were little and in elementary and how much no one cared about us, always picked on us, and we never really had any friends. It felt weird, and kind of scary. Because... To be quite honest, I still feel like that on a regular basis, even though I'm pretty sure it's all in my head and I should just shut up about the whole thing. But, it's just strange for me to still feel like this. I wouldn't know why I do, I mean, I have good friends, it's not like I'm an outcast, and I don't seclude myself from others. Well I lie, I do. I do it all the time, pretty much everyday, actually. Kind of interesting, and it feels like this...

Meaningless words,
Air with a piercing sound.
Breath being wasted,
By moments less counted.
Stunned with a wall of confusion,
Blocked by decay of a heartless hand.
Accommidated monthly,
Recorded anually.
Fear from a lion,
Roar from a mouse,
Blood of a honest girl.
Wrapped with suffocation,
Held with disorientaion.
Impaled with love,
Slapped with kindness.
Fucked by emotionless pain.
Ride on a devilish dragon,
Walk on a fatal beach.
Song sung over and over and over once more.
Lipless smile,
Eyeless wink,
Begot by a monster,
Feeding on flesh.
Long blonde hair,
Torn out of your head.
Tear it up,
To eat the pieces.
Song sung over and over and over again.