And I still taste you, and thus reserve my right to hate you.
ack... I'm relating to Brand New lyrics.. that's never a good sign. I haven't been really happy in a while, I can't stop thinking about the situation with Perry and whether anything is really going to happen. Sometimes I think I'd rather not be with him at all than be what we are, cuz then I'd know where we stand.
Jealousy is the ugliest emotion. It makes me doubt myself, trust in other people, and makes me angry at myself for feeling these things. I know you're not supposed to hold back or regret your feelings but how do you explain that?
School makes me braindead. My mood just drops when I walk in the building, I hate being there. The pressure to do well, keep a smile on your face, and respect people you have 0 respect for gets really fucking old really fast. I don't understand the need to learn things that I will never apply in my life, and have my grades in a class I don't need effect my future which has NOTHING to do with that class. This senior in my study hall today looked at my math work and asked if I was in trig. I said no, I'm taking geometry. he looked at me like I was crazy and asked whether I was a sophmore or junior. I told him I was a junior, and he asked why I was in geometry. I told him I wasn't very good at math so I was a year behind. the kid gave me a strange look and didn't really talk to me for the rest of class. I'm sorry, was I not as perfect as you had thought? FUCK YOU.
I'm frustrated right now.
I just watched Harold and Kumar go to White Castle though, that brightened my day. sort of. basically just made me hungry.
Jealousy is the ugliest emotion. It makes me doubt myself, trust in other people, and makes me angry at myself for feeling these things. I know you're not supposed to hold back or regret your feelings but how do you explain that?
School makes me braindead. My mood just drops when I walk in the building, I hate being there. The pressure to do well, keep a smile on your face, and respect people you have 0 respect for gets really fucking old really fast. I don't understand the need to learn things that I will never apply in my life, and have my grades in a class I don't need effect my future which has NOTHING to do with that class. This senior in my study hall today looked at my math work and asked if I was in trig. I said no, I'm taking geometry. he looked at me like I was crazy and asked whether I was a sophmore or junior. I told him I was a junior, and he asked why I was in geometry. I told him I wasn't very good at math so I was a year behind. the kid gave me a strange look and didn't really talk to me for the rest of class. I'm sorry, was I not as perfect as you had thought? FUCK YOU.
I'm frustrated right now.
I just watched Harold and Kumar go to White Castle though, that brightened my day. sort of. basically just made me hungry.