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I'm once again working on a lab report. Oh what a joy! This one requires millions of graphs, which is taking me ages.
I had a very nice weekend in my opinion. Well, excluding Sunday when I just stayed in bed due to a high fever.
Last wednesday night I think it was, I told Tom I wanted to end our relationship. He ended up spending the night because I wanted to "cuddle for the last time." Then on Friday, Eljas and I decided to have a movie night, and he came over with tortilla chips and extremely fatty cheese dip and we watched The Exorcism of Emily Rose and Brotherbear Koda. They were ok. Then we both talked about how depressing and unfair life is, til he left around 2.30. I went to sleep, only to wake up at 3.18, to Tom's special doorbell ringing. He had said earlier that he wanted to discuss this "break up" with me, but I told him I didn't want him to come over wasted because he wouldn't remember anything the next morning. Well, he was completely off his face drunk. Typical. Didn't have the heart to turn him away though, so again, he spent the night. He didn't let me sleep a wink though which annoyed me. The morning after was nice though, we did a lot of talking and it was really nice and I missed him when he left to go househunting.
Saturday night, Kirsty, my friend from church, came over to spend the night. She brought 2 of her flatmates and we went to the Grovel together for a few drinks and a game of pool. I sucked bad, again. Don't know what's happening to me! Kirsty's flatmate Katherine gave me a few blowjob tips. Who knows when those will be needed. I saw Ben as well. Haven't seen him in ages. We went with him to a houseparty in Thorncliffe 22. I didn't stay long though because I was knackered and so was Kirsty.
Next morning was church. It was ok, but I couldn't really enjoy it so much since I was coming down with the fever and I didn't stay for lunch. I just went home and stayed in bed the rest of the day watching Friends. Tom came over to see me and said my body was boiling. I said again that I thought it would be best for us to end our relationship. Of course it's not going to end if I just keep seeing him, is it, but I just like him so much...
On monday I did my laundry. Exciting, huh? I had so much washing to do, and had no place to hang them to dry afterwards. I still have socks hanging from my window. Then Tom and I went out for a subway and I went to keep him company while he did his laundry. I had such a nice time and thought for a second that I might be falling in love with him. I'm hoping it was just the after-effects of the fever. He held my hand for the first time when we were walking back home. Then he invited me to go out with him and his friends that night to TigerTiger. Stupidly, I agreed, though I had, and still have, loads of work to do. Hannah and Winnie decided to accompany me.
I liked TigerTiger. The music was great and there were so many fit guys around. Somehow Hannah still ended up pulling the ugliest guy there, and it will be remembered forever. As will the fact that she now officially has no ass. My feelings of possible love for Tom faded when I started to have longing, wistful thoughts towards Adam. Yes, the Adam I had a huge crush on last semester. Don't know what's wrong with me. I guess there is just something inside of me that just doesn't want to let me be happy. Tom noticed I was acting strange, but I just couldn't help it. I just don't like hugging and kissing him in front of Adam. And Tom was being really open about his feelings towards me last night, probably because he was drunk again. (UGH!!) He kept putting his arms around me in the club and when we were walking home he kept trying to hold my hand. Quite sweet actually, just my stupid feelings had to screw everything up.
He begged me to spend the night at his so I did. It was actually very nice. By today morning I felt about him exactly the way I had while doing laundry with him. We both skipped our morning lectures to just lay in bed. Well, I skipped all of mine, and he attempted to go to his afternoon ones but couldn't find the room in the end. Would just be better for me not to see Adam ever again. Wouldn't want those feelings towards him to be renewed! After all, they are like almost best friends now...so its BAD! But I'm sure it was just that one night and my stupid mood swings.
Carita is coming here next week!! I CAN'T WAIT!!! I miss her so much...
I had a very nice weekend in my opinion. Well, excluding Sunday when I just stayed in bed due to a high fever.
Last wednesday night I think it was, I told Tom I wanted to end our relationship. He ended up spending the night because I wanted to "cuddle for the last time." Then on Friday, Eljas and I decided to have a movie night, and he came over with tortilla chips and extremely fatty cheese dip and we watched The Exorcism of Emily Rose and Brotherbear Koda. They were ok. Then we both talked about how depressing and unfair life is, til he left around 2.30. I went to sleep, only to wake up at 3.18, to Tom's special doorbell ringing. He had said earlier that he wanted to discuss this "break up" with me, but I told him I didn't want him to come over wasted because he wouldn't remember anything the next morning. Well, he was completely off his face drunk. Typical. Didn't have the heart to turn him away though, so again, he spent the night. He didn't let me sleep a wink though which annoyed me. The morning after was nice though, we did a lot of talking and it was really nice and I missed him when he left to go househunting.
Saturday night, Kirsty, my friend from church, came over to spend the night. She brought 2 of her flatmates and we went to the Grovel together for a few drinks and a game of pool. I sucked bad, again. Don't know what's happening to me! Kirsty's flatmate Katherine gave me a few blowjob tips. Who knows when those will be needed. I saw Ben as well. Haven't seen him in ages. We went with him to a houseparty in Thorncliffe 22. I didn't stay long though because I was knackered and so was Kirsty.
Next morning was church. It was ok, but I couldn't really enjoy it so much since I was coming down with the fever and I didn't stay for lunch. I just went home and stayed in bed the rest of the day watching Friends. Tom came over to see me and said my body was boiling. I said again that I thought it would be best for us to end our relationship. Of course it's not going to end if I just keep seeing him, is it, but I just like him so much...
On monday I did my laundry. Exciting, huh? I had so much washing to do, and had no place to hang them to dry afterwards. I still have socks hanging from my window. Then Tom and I went out for a subway and I went to keep him company while he did his laundry. I had such a nice time and thought for a second that I might be falling in love with him. I'm hoping it was just the after-effects of the fever. He held my hand for the first time when we were walking back home. Then he invited me to go out with him and his friends that night to TigerTiger. Stupidly, I agreed, though I had, and still have, loads of work to do. Hannah and Winnie decided to accompany me.
I liked TigerTiger. The music was great and there were so many fit guys around. Somehow Hannah still ended up pulling the ugliest guy there, and it will be remembered forever. As will the fact that she now officially has no ass. My feelings of possible love for Tom faded when I started to have longing, wistful thoughts towards Adam. Yes, the Adam I had a huge crush on last semester. Don't know what's wrong with me. I guess there is just something inside of me that just doesn't want to let me be happy. Tom noticed I was acting strange, but I just couldn't help it. I just don't like hugging and kissing him in front of Adam. And Tom was being really open about his feelings towards me last night, probably because he was drunk again. (UGH!!) He kept putting his arms around me in the club and when we were walking home he kept trying to hold my hand. Quite sweet actually, just my stupid feelings had to screw everything up.
He begged me to spend the night at his so I did. It was actually very nice. By today morning I felt about him exactly the way I had while doing laundry with him. We both skipped our morning lectures to just lay in bed. Well, I skipped all of mine, and he attempted to go to his afternoon ones but couldn't find the room in the end. Would just be better for me not to see Adam ever again. Wouldn't want those feelings towards him to be renewed! After all, they are like almost best friends now...so its BAD! But I'm sure it was just that one night and my stupid mood swings.
Carita is coming here next week!! I CAN'T WAIT!!! I miss her so much...