-I can dream about tomorrow.. even if it's still today-
School was interesting. Spanish was the highlight prolly. I felt sick all day due to the fact i got sick in the middle of the night and didnt get much sleep and have the worst cramps. It was raining so Dad came and got me and laurie.. came back here and just hung out.. talked about a buncha stuff.. it helped w/ some things that are going on.. thanks laurie.
[have you ever wonder what life is about? you could search the world and never figur it out.]
i never realized how much i'd miss lauren..and i didnt realize how bad i'd need her here this year.. i'm starting to realize as much as none of us want this year to be a repeat of last year too bad, cause its gunna be..but only about hhhmmm.. 10x worse?
besides the feeling of rejection and hate the 3rd worst feeling in the world is knowing someone who supposedly cares a great deal about you.. never real did + is talking about you. i'm beginning to realize i'm losing alot of people and if things happen for a reason i guess that i'm supposed to just not be here anymore. cause thats how it feels. this summer just wow. i spent so much time w/ the people i care most about and now in school they're like gone. i rarely see anyone it feels. and i guess i've changed to everyone. for me.. i've changed for the better.. last year i almost freaking ended up in counsling and now i'm for once feeling good about myself and am happy to be here. but then again, i'm starting to feel i shouldnt be. i dont care if you were "joking" and i'm sorry i come off as some big bitch-slut-nasty-freak-whatever i appear to be.. i'm ME..i'm just plain old heather. no one new.. no one old.. just simply me. i've known half of you forever.. we've grown up.. we've changed.. we went to school.. we met at school.. however things went down.. and if i've changed that much then why does it take cover ups and lies and me questioning what you think.. then personally i think something's wrong there--because last time i thought "best friends" or "friends" told eachother what was going on and this great lil thing called hhhhmmm.. anyone know that word.. TRUTH
me and my sister have been getting closer and closer lately.. she's been helping me out w/ some stuff.. and i know melissa your reading this.. thanks for it all.. even that night when you let it all out..it taught me alot.
[But I'm willing to take what ever life brings..Cause your the only one that seems to know me..Even if the bad times call,if I had you back..I wouldn't complain at all]
it never took so much for me to realize who would stand by me and who wouldn't and who would hide from it all.
[It’s not easy love, but you’ve got friends you can trust]
[have you ever wonder what life is about? you could search the world and never figur it out.]
i never realized how much i'd miss lauren..and i didnt realize how bad i'd need her here this year.. i'm starting to realize as much as none of us want this year to be a repeat of last year too bad, cause its gunna be..but only about hhhmmm.. 10x worse?
besides the feeling of rejection and hate the 3rd worst feeling in the world is knowing someone who supposedly cares a great deal about you.. never real did + is talking about you. i'm beginning to realize i'm losing alot of people and if things happen for a reason i guess that i'm supposed to just not be here anymore. cause thats how it feels. this summer just wow. i spent so much time w/ the people i care most about and now in school they're like gone. i rarely see anyone it feels. and i guess i've changed to everyone. for me.. i've changed for the better.. last year i almost freaking ended up in counsling and now i'm for once feeling good about myself and am happy to be here. but then again, i'm starting to feel i shouldnt be. i dont care if you were "joking" and i'm sorry i come off as some big bitch-slut-nasty-freak-whatever i appear to be.. i'm ME..i'm just plain old heather. no one new.. no one old.. just simply me. i've known half of you forever.. we've grown up.. we've changed.. we went to school.. we met at school.. however things went down.. and if i've changed that much then why does it take cover ups and lies and me questioning what you think.. then personally i think something's wrong there--because last time i thought "best friends" or "friends" told eachother what was going on and this great lil thing called hhhhmmm.. anyone know that word.. TRUTH
me and my sister have been getting closer and closer lately.. she's been helping me out w/ some stuff.. and i know melissa your reading this.. thanks for it all.. even that night when you let it all out..it taught me alot.
[But I'm willing to take what ever life brings..Cause your the only one that seems to know me..Even if the bad times call,if I had you back..I wouldn't complain at all]
it never took so much for me to realize who would stand by me and who wouldn't and who would hide from it all.
[It’s not easy love, but you’ve got friends you can trust]