i only write in this thing when im depressed
i find myself at the botom of the bottle more and more these days but not like it was before. im not drunk and having fun now im just drunk and depressed. i dont like it. i went from being a fearless kid to a terrified adult. going from not give a fuck about anything but partying to worrying about where lifes going to take me. i didnt feel this way 8 months ago. theres to much hurt, to many tears, and not enough strength. when did you become my cryptonite? when did alocohol become my pain. if this is growing up maybe thats way ive been trying to stay young for so long and the fact that none of us are living fast and dying young like we planned i guess we are just going to grow old and miserable. i wish that thought was ever put in my head.