Closing night
Thursday night was like opening night again. Everyone went around in a daze, not "sparkling", "connecting", "listening", anything. My shoe flew off somewhere stage right halfway thought "Too Darn Hot". I wanted to run off the stage crying, but I kept smiling and danced with one foot. I barely remember what I even did, I just kept thinking about smiling and pretending like it was supposed to happen.
As I walked off stage and grabbed my shoe from Tanner, who'd been throwing it around backstage, I just laughed. I laughed so hard I cried.
Tonight is the last night. Last. Night. Those words don't go together for me, I don't want it to end. I've smiled more in the past two weeks than I have in the past year combined. I actually feel accepted by people, and comfortable on stage. You couldn't imagine how hard it was that first night to go on stage and be in the eyes of other people.
And then what's supposed to happen after tonight? I'll just leave this place behind forever, where I've spend so much time and energy, where I've laughed and cried and tripped and fallen and gotten back up. No. I'll come back after tonight. I'm going to make a name for myself there, Dancer Aimee is going to come back. That dancer girl who had a rose petal in her hair in the last scene, who's shoe flew off, who you never knew but should have, is going to come back.
I refuse to let anything ruin my day. And nothing is going to.
As I walked off stage and grabbed my shoe from Tanner, who'd been throwing it around backstage, I just laughed. I laughed so hard I cried.
Tonight is the last night. Last. Night. Those words don't go together for me, I don't want it to end. I've smiled more in the past two weeks than I have in the past year combined. I actually feel accepted by people, and comfortable on stage. You couldn't imagine how hard it was that first night to go on stage and be in the eyes of other people.
And then what's supposed to happen after tonight? I'll just leave this place behind forever, where I've spend so much time and energy, where I've laughed and cried and tripped and fallen and gotten back up. No. I'll come back after tonight. I'm going to make a name for myself there, Dancer Aimee is going to come back. That dancer girl who had a rose petal in her hair in the last scene, who's shoe flew off, who you never knew but should have, is going to come back.
I refuse to let anything ruin my day. And nothing is going to.