You said that things change
I can feel the bruises around my waist where the belts were yesterday. Tied up in the harness, learning how to fly. Like a corset you suck in breath as the straps are pulled, fumbling with the straps to get out of it as soon as you're done.
I went to the work party today, I thought someone I knew was going to be there. But there wasn't. I don't know what I was thinking, because I sure as hell couldn't build to save my life. A poor boy was stuck with me as we built a window frame, he talked to himself while making the plans. I stared at the walls, half constructed. What was I thinking. Finally a girl came to get me, told me to come sew or else.
The costumes are beautiful. I can't believe I get to wear them. I want to keep them forever, I should because I made part of it.
I still feel good today, and it's kind of freaking me out. It makes me realize I haven't been really happy in the longest time. I just want to figure out what's changed. I'm not really in love. Nothing life-changingley good has happened lately. Finals is coming up, so I shouldn't be happy. I'm under so much stress I could burst and yet I want to smile and run around in circles laughing until I fall.
I went to the work party today, I thought someone I knew was going to be there. But there wasn't. I don't know what I was thinking, because I sure as hell couldn't build to save my life. A poor boy was stuck with me as we built a window frame, he talked to himself while making the plans. I stared at the walls, half constructed. What was I thinking. Finally a girl came to get me, told me to come sew or else.
The costumes are beautiful. I can't believe I get to wear them. I want to keep them forever, I should because I made part of it.
I still feel good today, and it's kind of freaking me out. It makes me realize I haven't been really happy in the longest time. I just want to figure out what's changed. I'm not really in love. Nothing life-changingley good has happened lately. Finals is coming up, so I shouldn't be happy. I'm under so much stress I could burst and yet I want to smile and run around in circles laughing until I fall.