It's out of my hands
I've got my first meet since I quit this saturday. Instead of learning routines for months like in artistic, our time was limited and we learned the routines for T&T in about an hour. They're not complicated, they're still at optional level, but it's still challenging to complete one. A little over a month in T&T has brought me to a higher level than I ever reaches in 8 years of Artistic. I was in level 6 when I quit Artistic, but now I'm competing levels 7 & 8.
I took a spill and scared Shane yesterday. I really didn't mean to. I just sort of ended up on my head. He told me to come closer so I did. "Never. Do that again." he hissed.
"S-s-sorry." It wasn't like it was much fun for me either.
So the next time, instead of actually trying to complete the routine, I broke the momentum and stopped before my tucked brauni. And then of course, I got yelled at for stopping.
The real dilemma is trampoline is so fun, and it's so connected to gymnastics. But then of course, it only used half the skills I love, which therefore is flipping and twisting and all that. But the other half is left out, which is dancing. That's why artistic was the perfect sport for me, combining dance and flips, except for the fact that well, there was beam and I couldn't overcome that. And see, if I do just trampoline I'll never dance again, and if I go into ensemble then I'll lose all my tumbling skills and why can't there just be enough time to do both? When am I even going to get time to do either when I have supposedly 3+ hours of work to do a night with AP history and Chemistry and why do there have to be so many choices?
See, the great thing about ranting online is you never run out of breath.
I took a spill and scared Shane yesterday. I really didn't mean to. I just sort of ended up on my head. He told me to come closer so I did. "Never. Do that again." he hissed.
"S-s-sorry." It wasn't like it was much fun for me either.
So the next time, instead of actually trying to complete the routine, I broke the momentum and stopped before my tucked brauni. And then of course, I got yelled at for stopping.
The real dilemma is trampoline is so fun, and it's so connected to gymnastics. But then of course, it only used half the skills I love, which therefore is flipping and twisting and all that. But the other half is left out, which is dancing. That's why artistic was the perfect sport for me, combining dance and flips, except for the fact that well, there was beam and I couldn't overcome that. And see, if I do just trampoline I'll never dance again, and if I go into ensemble then I'll lose all my tumbling skills and why can't there just be enough time to do both? When am I even going to get time to do either when I have supposedly 3+ hours of work to do a night with AP history and Chemistry and why do there have to be so many choices?
See, the great thing about ranting online is you never run out of breath.