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[sugared_dreams]

Ever feel as if you're being swept away by the tide? That's about how I feel right now, and not just about the emotear school rant that everyone seems to have at least one of right now. I'm thinking about time. Maybe I'm just in a mood, but I'm looking back and it seems that just yesterday I was a fresh, doe-eyed junior being led like a puppy about

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[fishko]

*hugglelicks* if only LJ was used for posts like this more often.
hell, I... dah, I don't even know what to say (but then do I ever?)

I love you Kitty.
It's okay if you don't have a romantic bone in your body. I'm starting to realize that I have a lot less of one than I thought I did.

hm... and instead of the lonely apartment with the animals and the books, let's go to Africa, you and me, "after college" x3
you can do that whole Doctors Without Borders thing (assuming you're still interested in doing things of that nature) and I can be some silly wildlife biologist and yell at people for trying not to starve instead of conserving the Ugly Yellow Muskrat or something xP
so you can save the silly people, and I'll save the silly animals, and at night we'll sit and be giggly about silly childish girly things.
*scratches head, musing* well, sounded like a good idea to me, lol.

and you're not weak. you just act like somebody who feels like they are. maybe that's why you overcompensate.

[sugared_dreams]

Now that LJ's letting me near it again...

Thank you for that. I'm feeling somewhat better now. I don't know exactly what prompted all of that, something about me reading and thinking and the stress of academia...maybe. Dunno. But then I was typing and sniffling and...yeah.

Africa sounds great. You play with the muskrats and I'll play with the people, and life shall be Grand.

And I love you too. Always.

[pyreflysden]

To be truthful I’m more than slightly offended that you think I’m holding thing over your head. I do favors for you because I am your friend, not to get things in return. Yes, every now and then it’d be nice to have the same courtesy visited upon me, but I do not expect it. The thing about the RP hosting was simply me trying to get a straight answer as to if I needed to renew the hosting or not and to bring up the fact that as a guild leader and participant in the RP if you wanted to foot some of the bill it wouldn’t be turned town. Levi has already said he would help me with the cost if I asked him. And seeing as how each of your parts would be a mere $3, I don’t see it as unreasonable to ask for help. Levi had even expressed interest in me getting an actual domain for the guild (incusus-somnium.net) rather than just the sub domain I have set up now. That would be an extra $10 when I renewed it. I personally see little point in doing it, but the option is there. It can also be done at any time, not just when I have to renew it

[sugared_dreams]

Frankly, it wasn't/isn't just you, or directed at anyone in particular. Half the time it's not even fully conscious, at least not until I'm away from the situation and can look abck and attempt to analyze my behavior and responses. I can understand wanting help for the hosting: that conversation was just fresh in my mind, having only been had the night before when I had written this. And, for the record, I _know_ it's not fair to you, or Levi, or Licki, or any of those people of whom I know wouldn't do that to me. I believe I also said as much in that long mess of upset ramble. That doesn't stop it from happening, niggling its way into the back of my psyche. To be totally honest, I don't even know why I brought it up, other than I had been doing some soul searching after a rather long conversation with Levi the night previous, and I had realized that a lot of what he had pointed out, particularly regarding lingering trust issues, was true. It sucks, and I'm sorry, and I really don't want to have hurt or to hurt you. Perhaps I

[zombiestar]

don't worry you are strong and your smart so don't get down on your self and your friends are here to help you and make you laugh and read dirty yoai!!

[sugared_dreams]

Thanks, luv. I'm feeling a bit better now. Have fun in Chicago and bring me back naughty doujinshi! =P

Call me when you get back? Please?

[zombiestar]

i coun't find you any thing i like at the doujinshi table but i found an artist who likes to draw hp slash so i got you a small poster and a little thing i think you will like it

*hugs*

[haruyuki]

Breaking my no-internet vow here to say that we - I - really do care about you. There are several dozen ways that I think of to explain why and how, but, really, they don't get any simpler or clearer than that.

Sorry if I've had the whole long-distance/not-calling thing going on for the past few months. I actually sorta assumed that you in-state people would not want to be bothered with untimely ASMS-nostalgia. You're not alone in missing our old petshop sessions. :D

I agree with what Licki said - you're not weak. And, er, excursions in Africa aside, I don't think anybody should have the slightest idea about what they'll be up to ten years into the future. I can't see life as being very interesting for those who do. :P

P.S. Not all of us are already all married off, you know. xD

Re: *hugs*

[haruyuki]

P.P.S. *gasp*!! I'd no idea you would be out of school by the 8th. In that case, either you or Krissy contact me once you have times figured out. (Hopefully, it can be for longer than a day this time?)

....you've got me all excited now. *waltzes off*

Re: *hugs*

[sugared_dreams]

It's not that I didn't think anyone cared---it would be exceedingly emo/attentionwhorish to think that. I know you do. I guess I was just sitting there and looking back and scared about the future. I was thinking about myself, thinking about conversations my mother has had about her friends, and the thought of being in that position at the time terrified the hell out of me. That, plus little sleep plus test anxiety plus school stress all combined into one very unhappy Kitty.
><;;; And I can't wait to see ya'll in Mobile.