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I was so upset about me and angie I got sick last night...I was vomiting up everything I ate. I think it;s b/c I cryed to hard...it upset my stomach. I still have to fight off tears.
She doesn't want to think about it b/c its easier for her. I wish I could be numb too. I wish I could just not think about it.
but instead I just hurt. I want to be her friend soo bad and I'm sure we'll be able to be friends...as long as she doesn't invite adam to schwag. I'd die.
I love her so much as a person.
Honostly I knew it wouldn't last...I just hoped it would.
I hate feeling so much.
I feel ugly...and disgusting...and stupid.
and I feel like my insides are crumpling...
I miss her....
I love her....and always will
She doesn't want to think about it b/c its easier for her. I wish I could be numb too. I wish I could just not think about it.
but instead I just hurt. I want to be her friend soo bad and I'm sure we'll be able to be friends...as long as she doesn't invite adam to schwag. I'd die.
I love her so much as a person.
Honostly I knew it wouldn't last...I just hoped it would.
I hate feeling so much.
I feel ugly...and disgusting...and stupid.
and I feel like my insides are crumpling...
I miss her....
I love her....and always will