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I have no idea how to love
I've only ever truly loved one guy and it made me scared so i ran and ran until i couldn't run anymore
And now hes back and i want to be his girlfriend but i know how this works and i know i'll only end up sabotaging our relationships except this time it'll hurt me as well
i don't want to see him hurt but i don't wanna live the rest of my life thinking what if
i'm shit at explaining my feelings but when i think about him i either starts crying or laughing uncontrollably
plus he deserves better than a stupid insecure girl who'll get depressed if he at least looks at a girl for a split second
i dont know
i wish i could go back to not being able to feel love
it was easier that way
I've only ever truly loved one guy and it made me scared so i ran and ran until i couldn't run anymore
And now hes back and i want to be his girlfriend but i know how this works and i know i'll only end up sabotaging our relationships except this time it'll hurt me as well
i don't want to see him hurt but i don't wanna live the rest of my life thinking what if
i'm shit at explaining my feelings but when i think about him i either starts crying or laughing uncontrollably
plus he deserves better than a stupid insecure girl who'll get depressed if he at least looks at a girl for a split second
i dont know
i wish i could go back to not being able to feel love
it was easier that way