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I used to write in here all the time. I also used to be fifteen. To be honest, that doesn't even matter. Not much has changed.
I went through my LJ all the way from the fall of 2005 through my current entries today, partly out of boredom, and partly out of curiosity. In my ed classes, we talk about all the stuff high school and middle school students are thinking about. Most of the people there are over 30, there's even several with kids in middle or high school. Everything they've been saying has sounded so wrong to me... I'm the only one who's still a teenager, so I try to make them understand, but they don't hear me. They smile politely and wait for me to grow up. Silly people, this is not how you learn to effectively communicate with young people. While you smile and wait for them to grow up, they live their lives. And you miss it--you miss all of the things you claim to care so much about understanding, and you do it on purpose!
Now I'm dating Jake, even though 4 years ago I said it could never happen. He and Alex are even fairly nice to each other for my benefit. I love them for it. I lost Dana and Patty for a little bit, but I think they're back now. I talk to Colleen occasionally, but we're both busy with work and school and lives, so we never get to hang out. I see Kyle when we're in the same general area, but since he lives on the west side of the state and i live on the east side of the state, that isn't often. When I first wrote in here, I hadn't met, and then later, hardly knew Amy. Now I spend about 50% of my waking hours talking to her about anything and everything. I miss talking to Andrea. I miss Ruth's advice. I miss Bri, just in general. I miss Dan's comments, and the way he tried to fix the problems I created, even though he probably knew I'd never follow through on his advice or follow his logic.
Not everything has changed, though. Alex is still my best friend, and when traffic isn't bad, I can get to his house in only about twice the time it took when we lived in Trenton. I still read Please Don't Kill The Freshman--I just gave Amy her own highlighted copy as an early graduation present. I'm at Eastern studying to be a secondary math teacher, just like I always said I would. I picked a physics minor; last semester was rough but I'm happy with my decision as a whole. Maddie and I still have inappropriate discussions about boys and our relationships with them. We are going to start writing comics again... we'll have to mail them to AZ to get to Bri. I still care too much and not enough about everything. It's easier now that I live away from home, but my relationship with my mom is still rocky. I'm still a marching band geek. I'm a section leader this fall =]. Dorks still make me happy. My favorite people to be around are those who hang out in the Math Den, and the people who go to Lunchtime Physics on Wednesdays at noon for free juice and cookies and fun science. I still want a gay best friend to go shopping with and rate boys with. I still stay up to late and take on too much to get done in 24 hour days.
Now that I don't live at home, I've realized that my dad and brother are actually really funny guys. I think that the combination of me, my mother, and our fights pretty much prevented them from speaking about 80% of the time they wanted to. Jesse's going to Central in the fall. I hope he doesn't get too drunk too often. I don't think he will, he's a pretty smart kid. And he's pretty accurate when throwing a ping-pong ball...just saying.
I get a new apartment soon! Like, in 2 weeks! It's going to be mine...all mine =] It's going to be small and crappy but it will be mine for 2 whole years, so I don't have to keep moving around semester after semester.
Enough rambling. Time to catch up on sleep.
I went through my LJ all the way from the fall of 2005 through my current entries today, partly out of boredom, and partly out of curiosity. In my ed classes, we talk about all the stuff high school and middle school students are thinking about. Most of the people there are over 30, there's even several with kids in middle or high school. Everything they've been saying has sounded so wrong to me... I'm the only one who's still a teenager, so I try to make them understand, but they don't hear me. They smile politely and wait for me to grow up. Silly people, this is not how you learn to effectively communicate with young people. While you smile and wait for them to grow up, they live their lives. And you miss it--you miss all of the things you claim to care so much about understanding, and you do it on purpose!
Now I'm dating Jake, even though 4 years ago I said it could never happen. He and Alex are even fairly nice to each other for my benefit. I love them for it. I lost Dana and Patty for a little bit, but I think they're back now. I talk to Colleen occasionally, but we're both busy with work and school and lives, so we never get to hang out. I see Kyle when we're in the same general area, but since he lives on the west side of the state and i live on the east side of the state, that isn't often. When I first wrote in here, I hadn't met, and then later, hardly knew Amy. Now I spend about 50% of my waking hours talking to her about anything and everything. I miss talking to Andrea. I miss Ruth's advice. I miss Bri, just in general. I miss Dan's comments, and the way he tried to fix the problems I created, even though he probably knew I'd never follow through on his advice or follow his logic.
Not everything has changed, though. Alex is still my best friend, and when traffic isn't bad, I can get to his house in only about twice the time it took when we lived in Trenton. I still read Please Don't Kill The Freshman--I just gave Amy her own highlighted copy as an early graduation present. I'm at Eastern studying to be a secondary math teacher, just like I always said I would. I picked a physics minor; last semester was rough but I'm happy with my decision as a whole. Maddie and I still have inappropriate discussions about boys and our relationships with them. We are going to start writing comics again... we'll have to mail them to AZ to get to Bri. I still care too much and not enough about everything. It's easier now that I live away from home, but my relationship with my mom is still rocky. I'm still a marching band geek. I'm a section leader this fall =]. Dorks still make me happy. My favorite people to be around are those who hang out in the Math Den, and the people who go to Lunchtime Physics on Wednesdays at noon for free juice and cookies and fun science. I still want a gay best friend to go shopping with and rate boys with. I still stay up to late and take on too much to get done in 24 hour days.
Now that I don't live at home, I've realized that my dad and brother are actually really funny guys. I think that the combination of me, my mother, and our fights pretty much prevented them from speaking about 80% of the time they wanted to. Jesse's going to Central in the fall. I hope he doesn't get too drunk too often. I don't think he will, he's a pretty smart kid. And he's pretty accurate when throwing a ping-pong ball...just saying.
I get a new apartment soon! Like, in 2 weeks! It's going to be mine...all mine =] It's going to be small and crappy but it will be mine for 2 whole years, so I don't have to keep moving around semester after semester.
Enough rambling. Time to catch up on sleep.