shhh

[sugarcandypop]

dont tell anyone im still sort of here. do not tweet, link, reblog.
in fact, you dont have to read this the bitch dulce blog is the more interesting one.

im so excited to go to japan.
it seems at the moment i am living for going away.
i am tired of being here.
i am tired of familiarity.
i am tired of kaplastikan and bullshit.
i am tired of having to put on a fake face.
i am tired of pretending that everything is ok.

i would like to just close my eyes and wake up in a world where i don't expect anything of anyone, and they dont expect anything of me.

i think discovering false friendships makes you jaded.
i really am the worst judge of character.
i am quick to trust and in the end that is always the problem.
but for now, i feel like i am strong on my own.
i love my friends who are still there and love me and are loyal to me, but i also now know that i need to love myself more.

i have never felt this ever.
i have always been needy for comfort and love.
but maybe its better to just stand on your own.
its a little lonely but i feel safe.
i just need to see how long it will last.