that ol' familiar heartbreak
Kinda devastated right now.
My boyfriend tells me he doesn't care if I fuck other people.
I don't think I can be with him now.
There has been an imbalance I've been ignoring for sometime.
It's not that I think he wants to be with other people.
I do trust him.
But, if he doesn't care enough to want me in the same way,
I just can't do this.
I want monogomy.
One on one love.
I want love.
True love.
Deep love.
Love that can express itself.
I'm sick with the thought of him leaving,
but , I suppose it's a familiar sickness,
so, I can take it.
I love him.
But, I realize I don't always love people who are good for me.
The thought of being on my own again is the only comfort.
I'm good alone.
Not so many moods.
Plenty of space.
I suppose it's just one uncomfortable conversation away now.
My boyfriend tells me he doesn't care if I fuck other people.
I don't think I can be with him now.
There has been an imbalance I've been ignoring for sometime.
It's not that I think he wants to be with other people.
I do trust him.
But, if he doesn't care enough to want me in the same way,
I just can't do this.
I want monogomy.
One on one love.
I want love.
True love.
Deep love.
Love that can express itself.
I'm sick with the thought of him leaving,
but , I suppose it's a familiar sickness,
so, I can take it.
I love him.
But, I realize I don't always love people who are good for me.
The thought of being on my own again is the only comfort.
I'm good alone.
Not so many moods.
Plenty of space.
I suppose it's just one uncomfortable conversation away now.