I love you, my Masochist Osakan
Disclaimer: I don't own Nishikido Ryo, Ueda Tatsuya or any other Johnny Entertainment artists..
as much as I want to XD ON WITH THE STORY!! :)))
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I quickly folded the letter and put it in the drawer when I heard knocking on my door. I wiped away the tears from my eyes and cleared my throat.
“Coming!” I yelled, heading for the door and opening it. It wasn’t a surprise that it was my boyfriend, Nishikido Ryo. He looked exhausted, with shoulders slumped and disarrayed hair.
“Mou~! Hime, next time open the door faster. I’m so tired I think I’ll just might die.” He grumbled, walking inside my apartment and collapsed himself on my sofa.
“Sorry, I was in my room.” I replied, seeing that he didn’t say anything back, I poked his face.
“Ryo-chan, are you okay? Do you need a painkiller or something?” I asked but my waist was suddenly embraced by his arms and he pulled me onto the sofa with him. His face looked contented as he snuggled on my chest and arms in tight grip, never letting me go.
“I miss you, you know?” he mumbled. Those words speared right to my heart and my eyes started to water again.
“I miss you too.” I whispered, burying my nose into his hair. My fingers played with his dark locks until he shifted his face to the side and started ranting about his day. Though it did ruin the short peaceful atmosphere, I simply stayed silent and listened to his voice, slipping into Osaka-ben.
“..And then I noticed Shige wasn’t eating much so I stuffed more food in his mouth. But people think I was bullying him again. Seriously, is it too hard to believe I genuinely care about my members?” Ryo stopped talking when he noticed I was being too quiet. “Hey Tatsuya-sama, are you listening?”
“Of course I was listening.” I replied but my voice was hoarse. Ryo looked up at me with a frown.
“What’s wrong?” he asked. I took a deep breath and forced a small smile.
“It’s nothing.”
“Bullshit. You know I will always find out.” He started to turn frantic and sat up, “Wait a minute, you’re not cheating on me right?! Because if you do, I’ll kill that bastard and I’ll torture you for a million years until I’m satisfied.”
He frowned deeper with intensity in his eyes. God, those eyes.
“Seriously, what the hell are you talking about?” I gave him a poker face. “I have no reason to cheat on such a wonderful man.”
I leaned my head on his shoulder and took his hand in mine. Our fingers laced together. I closed my eyes savoring every breath, every touch, every single moment I had with him.
“Hime, why are you crying?”
My eyes shot opened and I quickly sat rigidly at the edge of my sofa as I wiped the tears away, wondering how it got there. I finally made up my mind to tell him. It was best if he knew so at least he would understand.
“This evening after I got home, I received a letter from the postbox. It was from my parents.” I explained, “I previously sent them a letter. I told them who I really was. That I’m gay and I’m in a relationship and that I love you very much. I didn’t say your name though but now I think about it I should have told you first before I wrote to them. I’m sorry. So I told them, I’m sorry if it upsets them and I hope that they continue to love me like a son since I was born. I asked them, if it wasn’t too much, I would love to have their blessings. So then I received a reply from them.”
“What did they say?” Ryo asked. I could sense his nervousness.
“My father wrote that I’m a disgraced and if I don’t repent and break things off with you, they want nothing to do with me.” I said sadly. “They even said that they could ‘fix’ me by matchmaking me with a girl if I want. How stupid, right?”
I turned and looked at my lover, who was staring on the floor, contemplating what to say. But I continued.
“Even if I go along with what they say, I know for a fact that I will never be happy.”
Ryo finally looked up and asked, “What are you going to tell them?”
“What I’m telling you now.” I whispered, “I just don’t understand. I just want to be happy with you. Is it so difficult?”
I covered my face with my hand in frustration. I will never understand. They are my parents. Why can’t they be more supportive?
It was embarrassing to be sobbing my heart out in front of Ryo. But I didn’t care. He was the love of my life. My soulmate. Why is it so hard for us to be happy? I felt like the whole world was against us. I was almost at my breaking point. My patience was running thin. And the sacrifice was getting bigger.
I felt him snaking his hand on my back and rubbed it in an up and down motion. It was soothing and comforting. Slowly, I stopped myself from crying.
“Hime, it's late. Let’s go to sleep okay.” He said softly. He got up and led me to my bedroom.
When my head felt my pillow, I immediately dozed off. I didn’t know how long I slept but when I woke up, the lamp on my desk was turned on.
“Ryo…” I called out to the room, but no reply.
I got up and made my way over to my desk. Just when I was about to turn the lamp off, I saw my parents’ letter, a few balls of crumpled paper and my stationary splayed all over my desk. I looked closer and my eyes widened. It was written letter with Ryo’s handwriting. I reached over, picked it up and read the content.
Dear Ueda-san,
My name is Ryo. You may not know me but I am Tatsuya’s partner. I’m sorry for this unexpected letter but I would like to tell you that I am truly in love with your son. We have been together for almost a year now and our bonds are stronger than ever.
I don’t mean to be disrespectful but I am not writing this letter to beg for your forgiveness nor will I seek for your approval. I just want to tell you that you are very lucky to have a son like Tatsuya. He is kind, gentle, patient, caring and loving. You have brought him up as a good man and for that, I will be forever thankful to you. I could not ask for a better boyfriend than Tatsuya. He deserves all the happiness in this world but I alone could not fulfill it.
You and your wife, his mother, bring him joy and happiness as well. It breaks my heart to see him cry for his parents. Please do not force this ultimatum on him and allow him to choose the life he wants. He is a smart man, he knows what he wants. I love Tatsuya with all my heart and I will never let him go. Please respect Tatsuya’s decision and accept him for who he is.
I don’t think his sexuality made him a different person. He is still the same shy boy I always knew way back in our youth. I apologize if I sound too direct or blunt.
Sincerely,
Ryo
I never felt so touched. For Ryo to make an effort to send my parents a letter, it meant a lot to me. I placed back his notepad on the table and went back to bed. Just as I tucked myself in, I heard him coming out of the bathroom. I opened my eyes slightly and saw the light from the toilet filling up the room. I heard his footsteps going towards the desk. It went dark again when I heard him making his way around the room switching off all the lights.
I continued my breathing in a steady pace even though my heart was pounding fast as I felt his weight on the bed. He kissed me on my head and pulled the blanket over himself. I turned around, facing him and pressed myself on him, our legs entwined.
“Ryo…” I murmured, running my hand down his chest and around his hip.
“Mmm?” he replied, obviously tired.
“I love you even though you stuff food down Kato-kun’s throat.” His chest vibrated with laughter and he kissed me with a smirk on his stupid face.
“Goodnight my beautiful princess.”
“Goodnight and I love you, my Masochist Osakan.”
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Author's note: Something random I thought of. :) The idea just flow and flow...Hope you like it. Sorry if its short. Yes, I realized I wrote in Ueda's POV again. >.< gaaah...ok hope you enjoyed it. <3
as much as I want to XD ON WITH THE STORY!! :)))
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I quickly folded the letter and put it in the drawer when I heard knocking on my door. I wiped away the tears from my eyes and cleared my throat.
“Coming!” I yelled, heading for the door and opening it. It wasn’t a surprise that it was my boyfriend, Nishikido Ryo. He looked exhausted, with shoulders slumped and disarrayed hair.
“Mou~! Hime, next time open the door faster. I’m so tired I think I’ll just might die.” He grumbled, walking inside my apartment and collapsed himself on my sofa.
“Sorry, I was in my room.” I replied, seeing that he didn’t say anything back, I poked his face.
“Ryo-chan, are you okay? Do you need a painkiller or something?” I asked but my waist was suddenly embraced by his arms and he pulled me onto the sofa with him. His face looked contented as he snuggled on my chest and arms in tight grip, never letting me go.
“I miss you, you know?” he mumbled. Those words speared right to my heart and my eyes started to water again.
“I miss you too.” I whispered, burying my nose into his hair. My fingers played with his dark locks until he shifted his face to the side and started ranting about his day. Though it did ruin the short peaceful atmosphere, I simply stayed silent and listened to his voice, slipping into Osaka-ben.
“..And then I noticed Shige wasn’t eating much so I stuffed more food in his mouth. But people think I was bullying him again. Seriously, is it too hard to believe I genuinely care about my members?” Ryo stopped talking when he noticed I was being too quiet. “Hey Tatsuya-sama, are you listening?”
“Of course I was listening.” I replied but my voice was hoarse. Ryo looked up at me with a frown.
“What’s wrong?” he asked. I took a deep breath and forced a small smile.
“It’s nothing.”
“Bullshit. You know I will always find out.” He started to turn frantic and sat up, “Wait a minute, you’re not cheating on me right?! Because if you do, I’ll kill that bastard and I’ll torture you for a million years until I’m satisfied.”
He frowned deeper with intensity in his eyes. God, those eyes.
“Seriously, what the hell are you talking about?” I gave him a poker face. “I have no reason to cheat on such a wonderful man.”
I leaned my head on his shoulder and took his hand in mine. Our fingers laced together. I closed my eyes savoring every breath, every touch, every single moment I had with him.
“Hime, why are you crying?”
My eyes shot opened and I quickly sat rigidly at the edge of my sofa as I wiped the tears away, wondering how it got there. I finally made up my mind to tell him. It was best if he knew so at least he would understand.
“This evening after I got home, I received a letter from the postbox. It was from my parents.” I explained, “I previously sent them a letter. I told them who I really was. That I’m gay and I’m in a relationship and that I love you very much. I didn’t say your name though but now I think about it I should have told you first before I wrote to them. I’m sorry. So I told them, I’m sorry if it upsets them and I hope that they continue to love me like a son since I was born. I asked them, if it wasn’t too much, I would love to have their blessings. So then I received a reply from them.”
“What did they say?” Ryo asked. I could sense his nervousness.
“My father wrote that I’m a disgraced and if I don’t repent and break things off with you, they want nothing to do with me.” I said sadly. “They even said that they could ‘fix’ me by matchmaking me with a girl if I want. How stupid, right?”
I turned and looked at my lover, who was staring on the floor, contemplating what to say. But I continued.
“Even if I go along with what they say, I know for a fact that I will never be happy.”
Ryo finally looked up and asked, “What are you going to tell them?”
“What I’m telling you now.” I whispered, “I just don’t understand. I just want to be happy with you. Is it so difficult?”
I covered my face with my hand in frustration. I will never understand. They are my parents. Why can’t they be more supportive?
It was embarrassing to be sobbing my heart out in front of Ryo. But I didn’t care. He was the love of my life. My soulmate. Why is it so hard for us to be happy? I felt like the whole world was against us. I was almost at my breaking point. My patience was running thin. And the sacrifice was getting bigger.
I felt him snaking his hand on my back and rubbed it in an up and down motion. It was soothing and comforting. Slowly, I stopped myself from crying.
“Hime, it's late. Let’s go to sleep okay.” He said softly. He got up and led me to my bedroom.
When my head felt my pillow, I immediately dozed off. I didn’t know how long I slept but when I woke up, the lamp on my desk was turned on.
“Ryo…” I called out to the room, but no reply.
I got up and made my way over to my desk. Just when I was about to turn the lamp off, I saw my parents’ letter, a few balls of crumpled paper and my stationary splayed all over my desk. I looked closer and my eyes widened. It was written letter with Ryo’s handwriting. I reached over, picked it up and read the content.
Dear Ueda-san,
My name is Ryo. You may not know me but I am Tatsuya’s partner. I’m sorry for this unexpected letter but I would like to tell you that I am truly in love with your son. We have been together for almost a year now and our bonds are stronger than ever.
I don’t mean to be disrespectful but I am not writing this letter to beg for your forgiveness nor will I seek for your approval. I just want to tell you that you are very lucky to have a son like Tatsuya. He is kind, gentle, patient, caring and loving. You have brought him up as a good man and for that, I will be forever thankful to you. I could not ask for a better boyfriend than Tatsuya. He deserves all the happiness in this world but I alone could not fulfill it.
You and your wife, his mother, bring him joy and happiness as well. It breaks my heart to see him cry for his parents. Please do not force this ultimatum on him and allow him to choose the life he wants. He is a smart man, he knows what he wants. I love Tatsuya with all my heart and I will never let him go. Please respect Tatsuya’s decision and accept him for who he is.
I don’t think his sexuality made him a different person. He is still the same shy boy I always knew way back in our youth. I apologize if I sound too direct or blunt.
Sincerely,
Ryo
I never felt so touched. For Ryo to make an effort to send my parents a letter, it meant a lot to me. I placed back his notepad on the table and went back to bed. Just as I tucked myself in, I heard him coming out of the bathroom. I opened my eyes slightly and saw the light from the toilet filling up the room. I heard his footsteps going towards the desk. It went dark again when I heard him making his way around the room switching off all the lights.
I continued my breathing in a steady pace even though my heart was pounding fast as I felt his weight on the bed. He kissed me on my head and pulled the blanket over himself. I turned around, facing him and pressed myself on him, our legs entwined.
“Ryo…” I murmured, running my hand down his chest and around his hip.
“Mmm?” he replied, obviously tired.
“I love you even though you stuff food down Kato-kun’s throat.” His chest vibrated with laughter and he kissed me with a smirk on his stupid face.
“Goodnight my beautiful princess.”
“Goodnight and I love you, my Masochist Osakan.”
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Author's note: Something random I thought of. :) The idea just flow and flow...Hope you like it. Sorry if its short. Yes, I realized I wrote in Ueda's POV again. >.< gaaah...ok hope you enjoyed it. <3