depressed...

[sugarbaby31421]

Well, news to all. Chris and I aren't really talking anymore. I am too hurt by him going out with Alicia and he can't deal with just being friends. He also doesnt have time for a FIVE FUCKING MINUTE phone call. So i give up. Im not giving my all to something that doesn't matter anymore. He told me last night that its not healthy for us to talk everyday, so i called him tonite asking what the fuck that was all about. Then we talked, I BALLED, and we decided that he's going to call when he has time or remembers. He also told me that he had this huge party this weekend, and when he woke up the next morning the pictures of me that he has were both gone. He had to ask where they were.They happened to be in his bottom drawer AND ALICIA'S PICTURE was now in the frame i gave him for his birthday which says I love you. WHAT KIND OF FUCKING BITCH pulls that kind of shit?? i mean seriously??? GOD I HATE Her... if i ever see her... i swear to god....she wont even know what hit her. Im happy that hes happy, but at the same time... how the hell can he be happy with Her???? God... i just want to see her and bitch her out sooooo bad....im so upset right now... once again... IM BALLING! This sucks. Oh, and i told him that i wanted him to be happy and he was like "when did that ever matter???" UMMM ALL THE FUCKING TIME ASS HOLE!! So basically, next time he calls, im not answering. I actually don't ever want to talk to him again.

I really hope i meet someone that treats me more than a paper bag that thrown in with all the shit that people don't care about.

Then, my best friend is playing mind games (not on purpose) with my other best friend and they are both talking to me and emptying their problems on me. I seriously can't deal with everything. I just dont know what to do.

P.S. I MISS Chrissy Warren Jaimie Heather Jenny Mommy Daddy Jenn (my only sister) Andrew Miya Heidi Colette (and IKED, but mostly all those listed before that)