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well to say I'm a bit annoyed would be an understatement..........
If you don't want to hear about it then I suggest you stop reading right now....wouldn't want to bore people to death!!!!
Well it all started in the usual boring physics lesson, got to thinking..we finish next Friday!!!! Which means 10 fecking days till my first art exam!!!! along with english,history and leisure c/wk due in either the day before,the same day or the day after the exam!!! I then started to freak out and got myself all stressed and worked up to the point where I couldnt even get my words out,let alone manage to do my work. Actually if it was for Jennie trying to sort it all out for me, my mood would be a lot more worse than it is now.
Anyway......back to my point
If there even is a point....which at the minute I doubt there is.....its just an excuse for me to rant on about how fucking worked up I am and how the stressing out got me to a pissed off mood.
Sorting my busy schedule out into a timetable proved effective cos I know have a better perspective of what needs doing and what for....
Art can go to hell!!! I don't give a shit about it so not much work is being done on that...
Leisure is a sleeping lesson hence why no c/wk has been getting done but seeing as I have to re-take my exam in it cos I got a D last time and "that's not up to my standards blah blah blah", I really need to get both portfolio's done to see if that can pull my grade up by even a bit....
History seems easier enough considering all I have to do is copy some homework answers and do a bit of explaining to get my marks.....
ENGLISH!!! oh god!!! the ROUGH draft can either be handed in tomorrow at the end of the lesson or at the end of Wednesday's lesson. Well because it's me and I do no work in the lessons (except from 4 lines today which only got done cos I told them to poke my hand with a compass if I lost my focus....which I did alot but oh well XD) its gonna be Wednesday now.
59 DAYS TILL THE FUCKING GCSE'S START!!!!!!! THATS LIKE 2 MONTHS AWAY!!!! ALL THIS FUCKING WORK AND STRESSING OUT AND ALL I GET AT THE END OF IT IS A PIECE OF PAPER SAYING "WELL DONE,WE THINK YOU ACHIEVED A BLAH,BLAH, GRADE"
Now after stressing about most of that it was little things in lessons like annoying people being....well their usual selves. People being rude little fuckers stuck up their own arse.....I mean hey you choose to smoke and get cancer but me, well I wanna actually live my life and not ruin it with them little shitty sticks of pleasure you seem to be addicted to so stop fucking blowing the smoke in my face and piss off!!!! I really wasn't in the mood to be annoyed anymore but y'know the little things push me over the edge
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've tried being calm and just chilling out but it doesnt seem to be working today and I don't know why :S
I just, I don't know how to calm myself down anymore. Other people e.g. Danny,Sarah,Clowe and Jennie seem to be able to calm me down now but I have lost all control of it and I just can't do it anymore :(
Yeah I tried to make this more interesting by changing the colours but oh fuck it.....I think I've rambled on for long enough now.
I would just like to apologise in advance if I bit anyone's head off before or if I do it sometime tonight.....I don't mean to but like I said the slightest things might push me over the edge.
I hope this is over by tonight or very soon cos I just get the feeling I'm gonna piss someone else off and probably end up pushing them away from me or something along those lines.......but its probably just me being stupid anyway...
If you talk to me tonight then just y'know talk to me like normal and shizz, just keep my mind off it all and I'll be alright. That's all I need really.
Sorry
and if you actually read all of that then thank you =]
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If you don't want to hear about it then I suggest you stop reading right now....wouldn't want to bore people to death!!!!
Well it all started in the usual boring physics lesson, got to thinking..we finish next Friday!!!! Which means 10 fecking days till my first art exam!!!! along with english,history and leisure c/wk due in either the day before,the same day or the day after the exam!!! I then started to freak out and got myself all stressed and worked up to the point where I couldnt even get my words out,let alone manage to do my work. Actually if it was for Jennie trying to sort it all out for me, my mood would be a lot more worse than it is now.
Anyway......back to my point
If there even is a point....which at the minute I doubt there is.....its just an excuse for me to rant on about how fucking worked up I am and how the stressing out got me to a pissed off mood.
Sorting my busy schedule out into a timetable proved effective cos I know have a better perspective of what needs doing and what for....
Art can go to hell!!! I don't give a shit about it so not much work is being done on that...
Leisure is a sleeping lesson hence why no c/wk has been getting done but seeing as I have to re-take my exam in it cos I got a D last time and "that's not up to my standards blah blah blah", I really need to get both portfolio's done to see if that can pull my grade up by even a bit....
History seems easier enough considering all I have to do is copy some homework answers and do a bit of explaining to get my marks.....
ENGLISH!!! oh god!!! the ROUGH draft can either be handed in tomorrow at the end of the lesson or at the end of Wednesday's lesson. Well because it's me and I do no work in the lessons (except from 4 lines today which only got done cos I told them to poke my hand with a compass if I lost my focus....which I did alot but oh well XD) its gonna be Wednesday now.
59 DAYS TILL THE FUCKING GCSE'S START!!!!!!! THATS LIKE 2 MONTHS AWAY!!!! ALL THIS FUCKING WORK AND STRESSING OUT AND ALL I GET AT THE END OF IT IS A PIECE OF PAPER SAYING "WELL DONE,WE THINK YOU ACHIEVED A BLAH,BLAH, GRADE"
Now after stressing about most of that it was little things in lessons like annoying people being....well their usual selves. People being rude little fuckers stuck up their own arse.....I mean hey you choose to smoke and get cancer but me, well I wanna actually live my life and not ruin it with them little shitty sticks of pleasure you seem to be addicted to so stop fucking blowing the smoke in my face and piss off!!!! I really wasn't in the mood to be annoyed anymore but y'know the little things push me over the edge
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've tried being calm and just chilling out but it doesnt seem to be working today and I don't know why :S
I just, I don't know how to calm myself down anymore. Other people e.g. Danny,Sarah,Clowe and Jennie seem to be able to calm me down now but I have lost all control of it and I just can't do it anymore :(
Yeah I tried to make this more interesting by changing the colours but oh fuck it.....I think I've rambled on for long enough now.
I would just like to apologise in advance if I bit anyone's head off before or if I do it sometime tonight.....I don't mean to but like I said the slightest things might push me over the edge.
I hope this is over by tonight or very soon cos I just get the feeling I'm gonna piss someone else off and probably end up pushing them away from me or something along those lines.......but its probably just me being stupid anyway...
If you talk to me tonight then just y'know talk to me like normal and shizz, just keep my mind off it all and I'll be alright. That's all I need really.
Sorry
and if you actually read all of that then thank you =]
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