I don't know what to do.
So on the last day of the financial year, I was made redundant.
I'd known for the two weeks preceding because my work had been trying to find another position for me. I made it clear I didn't want the same technical position, something more like project management. Clearly this didn't work out.
The thing is, each time I ask myself the question, "what do I want?" I don't have a concrete answer.
I don't know what I want.
I do know that I want to be happy and in a stable job that makes me excited everyday. This includes earning awesome money.
I do know that somehow, French needs to become a bigger part of my life. I can visualise myself speaking, writing and using French. So far, I ahven't been able to visualise (at least not with passion or interest) being an engineer.
I have been doing workshops from my outplacement services. One of them was profiling.
I found out that mechanical is a strong interest. More concerning but not surprising, artistic and musical were not just strong interests but actual needs.
The problem is, I'm an engineer. How in the world do I find a job that is a happy marriage of engineering and artistic/musical?!!
Added to this, I am struggling to decide whether to just go for France now or to wait. Honestly, does it matter if I go to France later rather than now? With my redundancy payout , I have enough money to survive for around 2 months, 3 if I'm really careful with budgeting.
I need to make decisions. The thing is, I don't know how to even start to make one:(
I'm hitting a wall and I'm not handling this at all.
Please for people who read this, send me some thought provoking questions that could help me at least figure out where I stand. For example, for the France decision, I'm going to ask myself "what is it that is stopping me from wanting to go right now?"
I'd known for the two weeks preceding because my work had been trying to find another position for me. I made it clear I didn't want the same technical position, something more like project management. Clearly this didn't work out.
The thing is, each time I ask myself the question, "what do I want?" I don't have a concrete answer.
I don't know what I want.
I do know that I want to be happy and in a stable job that makes me excited everyday. This includes earning awesome money.
I do know that somehow, French needs to become a bigger part of my life. I can visualise myself speaking, writing and using French. So far, I ahven't been able to visualise (at least not with passion or interest) being an engineer.
I have been doing workshops from my outplacement services. One of them was profiling.
I found out that mechanical is a strong interest. More concerning but not surprising, artistic and musical were not just strong interests but actual needs.
The problem is, I'm an engineer. How in the world do I find a job that is a happy marriage of engineering and artistic/musical?!!
Added to this, I am struggling to decide whether to just go for France now or to wait. Honestly, does it matter if I go to France later rather than now? With my redundancy payout , I have enough money to survive for around 2 months, 3 if I'm really careful with budgeting.
I need to make decisions. The thing is, I don't know how to even start to make one:(
I'm hitting a wall and I'm not handling this at all.
Please for people who read this, send me some thought provoking questions that could help me at least figure out where I stand. For example, for the France decision, I'm going to ask myself "what is it that is stopping me from wanting to go right now?"