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I moved into a better place in a worse part of town...but it was nice. And it was the fastest month of my life. Now I'm back in the dorms for the summer. I can't say no to free. Who can?? Hoping to find a place in August that I can stay in for at least a couple years...I'm too tired of moving around so much. I contemplated buying a house, then I realized that paying for rent school is probably more important right now. I'm not quite ready to sell my soul for a piece of land. Just doesn't seem...right.
I've been with a guy since mid-January, but we're still not official. The relationship is great, but he says he's not ready for a 'relationship' yet. I don't quite get it. Not sure if I'm gonna stay with him much longer because I don't want to be stuck in limbo. I'm not single, because I'm with him....but I don't have a boyfriend, 'cause he's not ready to be called that. I don't even know what I am...a lover? *shrug* I've lost my voice and thought I was getting pneumonia again...if I had, it most likely would've been some kind of record. Ugh.
Tomorrow is my last day working for my boss at the French bakery (after almost 3 years), but I'll still go help her out occasionally. I've been working for the Department of Justice in the criminal division for a few weeks now. It's going really well. The pay is wonderful. I'll also be starting work for the University sometime this coming week. Like I said, 'cant say no to a free room for the summer.
My mother is insane. I've always seen her play games, but she did something new the other day. Something I've never seen her do before and it REALLY weirded me out. I took my dad out for birthday lunch and she tagged along. She kept staring into what seemed like another realm almost, and kept looking around the restaurant in paranoia. Then out of nowhere she started crying and saying not to let 'them' take her. They were supposedly in white coats, coming for her in a white truck which resembled an ambulance. And they came for the neighbor earlier? Then she freaked out and said not to let Satan come for her, that he was there in the restaurant watching her and just waiting around the corner. She then said not to let "him" get her...and "get HER away." Then she kept repeating the same phrases over and over like someone with Alzheimer's disease. "Did you order that dish for me? Happy birthday...it's such a nice birthday. Who's that girl? Is she your daughter? I wish I had kids...Will you marry me? (my dad's response: I did marry you...we've been together for 24 years..) Oh...but I thought you wanted to marry ME." etc etc...for almost 2 hours. Same thing over and over. Finally I got pissed and told her to shut up or else I'd tell them to come for her. Then my dad told her to eat her food and we finally left. I honestly couldn't tell if it was a new game or if she had actually snapped. But she sure seems to be right back where she used to with the other games, so I assume it was just a game. Meh...I keep having nightmares about my dad being wasted away by her idiocy. And there isn't anything I can do about it.
But enough of that. The band I joined a while back, Emulsifier, came over tonight and we finished a song. Finally...they have 4 albums worth of music written already that just needs lyrics, and we always work on stuff but seem to jump around a lot. We finally stuck to one thing and finished it. We also did a new rendition of Strawberry Gashes by Jack Off Jill. Hopefully those two things will be recorded in the near future. :) Time to sleep so I can get my voice back...
I've been with a guy since mid-January, but we're still not official. The relationship is great, but he says he's not ready for a 'relationship' yet. I don't quite get it. Not sure if I'm gonna stay with him much longer because I don't want to be stuck in limbo. I'm not single, because I'm with him....but I don't have a boyfriend, 'cause he's not ready to be called that. I don't even know what I am...a lover? *shrug* I've lost my voice and thought I was getting pneumonia again...if I had, it most likely would've been some kind of record. Ugh.
Tomorrow is my last day working for my boss at the French bakery (after almost 3 years), but I'll still go help her out occasionally. I've been working for the Department of Justice in the criminal division for a few weeks now. It's going really well. The pay is wonderful. I'll also be starting work for the University sometime this coming week. Like I said, 'cant say no to a free room for the summer.
My mother is insane. I've always seen her play games, but she did something new the other day. Something I've never seen her do before and it REALLY weirded me out. I took my dad out for birthday lunch and she tagged along. She kept staring into what seemed like another realm almost, and kept looking around the restaurant in paranoia. Then out of nowhere she started crying and saying not to let 'them' take her. They were supposedly in white coats, coming for her in a white truck which resembled an ambulance. And they came for the neighbor earlier? Then she freaked out and said not to let Satan come for her, that he was there in the restaurant watching her and just waiting around the corner. She then said not to let "him" get her...and "get HER away." Then she kept repeating the same phrases over and over like someone with Alzheimer's disease. "Did you order that dish for me? Happy birthday...it's such a nice birthday. Who's that girl? Is she your daughter? I wish I had kids...Will you marry me? (my dad's response: I did marry you...we've been together for 24 years..) Oh...but I thought you wanted to marry ME." etc etc...for almost 2 hours. Same thing over and over. Finally I got pissed and told her to shut up or else I'd tell them to come for her. Then my dad told her to eat her food and we finally left. I honestly couldn't tell if it was a new game or if she had actually snapped. But she sure seems to be right back where she used to with the other games, so I assume it was just a game. Meh...I keep having nightmares about my dad being wasted away by her idiocy. And there isn't anything I can do about it.
But enough of that. The band I joined a while back, Emulsifier, came over tonight and we finished a song. Finally...they have 4 albums worth of music written already that just needs lyrics, and we always work on stuff but seem to jump around a lot. We finally stuck to one thing and finished it. We also did a new rendition of Strawberry Gashes by Jack Off Jill. Hopefully those two things will be recorded in the near future. :) Time to sleep so I can get my voice back...