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so new years, was, lame. well, it was okay because i got to see kim. i don't know i just always get these high expectations for whenever i have plans and then i always get let down. i just need to go with the flow and be happy with whatever happens and not be so disappointed when things don't go my way.
i also need to stop crying whenever i hear
-honey and the moon (joseph arthur)
-such great heights (postal service/iron and wine)
-run (snow patrol)
-let go (frou frou)
-hallelujah (every version of it makes me cry)
i need to stop crying whenever i hear those because they are mostly about having a wonderful or failed relationship etc and i am not currently in a relationsip so crying over them makes it pointless and i cry over so much already because i am so fucking emo (without really realizing it until just now).
i also need to stop deleting journal entries. i have logged in an written entire entries and then i just erase the whole thing and fail to update. why do i do this? probably because they usually go something like this
"i don't have a boyfriend, self pity, school is boring, my life is dull"
who wants to read that!?!? whatever. it's my journal and for now on, i will write however i please. vapid, meaningless entries and all
for some reason there was a box of krispy kreme doughnuts on my kitchen table. my family doesn't eat doughnuts. i hate doughnuts but i ate one anyways. so much for eating less junk for new years. sjhgjdh i suck.
i'm not going to really miss you 2004, no offense, but i'm trying to survive these "akward teenage years" and that's one more down. i really shouldn't take being this age for granted because i have a lot of responsibilities, but i'll obviouslyhave so much more when i'm older and out of high school and college. so really, i should embrace being a teenager. that's a difficult thing to do. ok new years resoltion: live for the moment. that sounded so much better in my head. nevertheless, i will obey it.
ok so i'm going to continue to be emotional for the rest of the day and watch garden state and listen to donovan frankenreiter which will hopefully out me in a better mood
<3peace
i also need to stop crying whenever i hear
-honey and the moon (joseph arthur)
-such great heights (postal service/iron and wine)
-run (snow patrol)
-let go (frou frou)
-hallelujah (every version of it makes me cry)
i need to stop crying whenever i hear those because they are mostly about having a wonderful or failed relationship etc and i am not currently in a relationsip so crying over them makes it pointless and i cry over so much already because i am so fucking emo (without really realizing it until just now).
i also need to stop deleting journal entries. i have logged in an written entire entries and then i just erase the whole thing and fail to update. why do i do this? probably because they usually go something like this
"i don't have a boyfriend, self pity, school is boring, my life is dull"
who wants to read that!?!? whatever. it's my journal and for now on, i will write however i please. vapid, meaningless entries and all
for some reason there was a box of krispy kreme doughnuts on my kitchen table. my family doesn't eat doughnuts. i hate doughnuts but i ate one anyways. so much for eating less junk for new years. sjhgjdh i suck.
i'm not going to really miss you 2004, no offense, but i'm trying to survive these "akward teenage years" and that's one more down. i really shouldn't take being this age for granted because i have a lot of responsibilities, but i'll obviouslyhave so much more when i'm older and out of high school and college. so really, i should embrace being a teenager. that's a difficult thing to do. ok new years resoltion: live for the moment. that sounded so much better in my head. nevertheless, i will obey it.
ok so i'm going to continue to be emotional for the rest of the day and watch garden state and listen to donovan frankenreiter which will hopefully out me in a better mood
<3peace