sunshine came softly through my window today
"The most important kind of freedom is to be what you really are"-Jim Morrison. yesterday was his birthday<3
i've decided two things
1. Grace told me that she's going to Hamilton College and that i'd love it. so i googeled it and the first link that came up said: Hamilton College-A liberal arts college focused on writing. kazzaamm. it's in new york. it looks perfect and now i'm all excited
2. i think that i'm going to take the hippie route from now on a cruise through high school just being chill, but still getting good grades. i hate these thoughts of "i don't have a boyfriend!(i'm going to try to stop worring about it but i still want one) this shirt makes me look fat! if i get up and sharpen my pencil everyone in the class will stare at me!" feelings of paranoia are getting old fast. so i'm adopting the "hippie" state of mind for the rest of my high school career. when i leave, i'll most likely have to get a more serious outlook on my future, but fuck that for now. let the tye dyeing commence.
i really am going into the Peace Corps. i don't know why i wouldn't. but i don't know what to do because do i go before college? and then come back and be older than eveyone in my class, or do i go after college? whenever i say i want to do the Peace Corps nobody ever believes me. well it's true. i need to do something with my life, i want to help people, i want to go to Africa and work with children, and i'm going to try to make it happen.
my family is decorating the christmas tree today. a favorite activity of mine. i got almost all of my christmas presents Tuesday so if you have any requests, you're too late. lo siento
today i sat next to claire during the assembly. she told me to write about how "crazy" it was and make it sound really cynical. ok i don't really know how but here i am...mentioing it. it's all for you claire.
i'm going to go draw. i haven't in a while, and whenever i sit down to, nothing ever comes to me. it scares me to think that i'm losing my "talent" or whatever i had, for art. i need ideas. somebody inspire me.
peace
i've decided two things
1. Grace told me that she's going to Hamilton College and that i'd love it. so i googeled it and the first link that came up said: Hamilton College-A liberal arts college focused on writing. kazzaamm. it's in new york. it looks perfect and now i'm all excited
2. i think that i'm going to take the hippie route from now on a cruise through high school just being chill, but still getting good grades. i hate these thoughts of "i don't have a boyfriend!(i'm going to try to stop worring about it but i still want one) this shirt makes me look fat! if i get up and sharpen my pencil everyone in the class will stare at me!" feelings of paranoia are getting old fast. so i'm adopting the "hippie" state of mind for the rest of my high school career. when i leave, i'll most likely have to get a more serious outlook on my future, but fuck that for now. let the tye dyeing commence.
i really am going into the Peace Corps. i don't know why i wouldn't. but i don't know what to do because do i go before college? and then come back and be older than eveyone in my class, or do i go after college? whenever i say i want to do the Peace Corps nobody ever believes me. well it's true. i need to do something with my life, i want to help people, i want to go to Africa and work with children, and i'm going to try to make it happen.
my family is decorating the christmas tree today. a favorite activity of mine. i got almost all of my christmas presents Tuesday so if you have any requests, you're too late. lo siento
today i sat next to claire during the assembly. she told me to write about how "crazy" it was and make it sound really cynical. ok i don't really know how but here i am...mentioing it. it's all for you claire.
i'm going to go draw. i haven't in a while, and whenever i sit down to, nothing ever comes to me. it scares me to think that i'm losing my "talent" or whatever i had, for art. i need ideas. somebody inspire me.
peace