Let me sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Insomnia. Blehhh. I wish I could be on a sleep schedule that allowed me to be up all night. I've enjoyed staying home and not interacting with many humans these last two days. I really need to be alone. Of course, when I am alone, I begin to go off in strange lines of thought, and have moments of paranoia. For example, when people complement something I've done, are they just saying it because they know I have only a few months to live, or some other horrible thing that I am unaware of? Why did the next book I pick up to read after reading 'To Kill a Mockingbird' also mention scuppernongs ('The Secret Lives of Bees'), was that in the book last time I read it? Or are anthropomorphic scuppernongs going to grow under my bed and reach out and grab my ankles with their vines the next time I get up?
It seems that it is a posibility.
I drew a moth girl and thought she was quite lovely, although I need to redo her arms, and get some decent pictures of moth wings to use as a reference. I want to make a doll of her, it would be perfect since her body could be sculpted and her hair would be perfect if I used that yarn I saw at work, I believe it was Lion Brand Homespun in 'Rococo', although I don't have the little slip of paper I jotted it down on in front of me right now. It is pretty beige blonde tan, and the Homespun yarn is soft and bumpy, unraveled and combed out it would be perfect fairie girl cotton candy hair.
With all this insomnia time on my hands I've planned my life out up until Fall. As long as something horrific doesn't come up, these are my plans: I think it would be best if I continued to work only one job, and put several hours a day (at least) towards working on art projects... its the only way I'll improve, and I won't get all freaky-insane as I have done on all the occasions I've worked two jobs at once. I'm keeping my resume up on Yahoo jobs in hope of finding a better paying job, tho'. Ummmm. Okay. And I will try that gym Jaimie recommended, but not join, because I don't know if I'll like going to a gym, although I like the idea of a gym where I won't have to be flailing around and sweating in front of a bunch of creepy men. I want my hard upper arm muscles back, damnit! Not scary-big muscles, but some nice firm definition. A must for sleeveless dresses (pretty sparkley flapper dresses, to be precise.).... Okay... what else did I decide? Ah yes, I want to take an oil painting class. Maybe at the community college? I really love the look oil painting produces, but it is too expensive and time consuming for me to try on my own and fuck up spectacularly on. I need guidance. So maybe when I have half of my debt paid off I will do that. And I will stay here in AZ/Hades for another summer, and deal with the heat, because it is the cheapest thing for me to do, and it will give me time to work on projects and not stress about moving and all that any time soon.
Okay. My life for the next six months or so is planned, I can go to bed now, I'll probably end up staring at the ceiling for a couple hours but oh well. My cold seems to be getting better. I get paid in less than two days, and can buy my stuff I need, and some crap I don't, and all is jolly and happy and all that shit.
It seems that it is a posibility.
I drew a moth girl and thought she was quite lovely, although I need to redo her arms, and get some decent pictures of moth wings to use as a reference. I want to make a doll of her, it would be perfect since her body could be sculpted and her hair would be perfect if I used that yarn I saw at work, I believe it was Lion Brand Homespun in 'Rococo', although I don't have the little slip of paper I jotted it down on in front of me right now. It is pretty beige blonde tan, and the Homespun yarn is soft and bumpy, unraveled and combed out it would be perfect fairie girl cotton candy hair.
With all this insomnia time on my hands I've planned my life out up until Fall. As long as something horrific doesn't come up, these are my plans: I think it would be best if I continued to work only one job, and put several hours a day (at least) towards working on art projects... its the only way I'll improve, and I won't get all freaky-insane as I have done on all the occasions I've worked two jobs at once. I'm keeping my resume up on Yahoo jobs in hope of finding a better paying job, tho'. Ummmm. Okay. And I will try that gym Jaimie recommended, but not join, because I don't know if I'll like going to a gym, although I like the idea of a gym where I won't have to be flailing around and sweating in front of a bunch of creepy men. I want my hard upper arm muscles back, damnit! Not scary-big muscles, but some nice firm definition. A must for sleeveless dresses (pretty sparkley flapper dresses, to be precise.).... Okay... what else did I decide? Ah yes, I want to take an oil painting class. Maybe at the community college? I really love the look oil painting produces, but it is too expensive and time consuming for me to try on my own and fuck up spectacularly on. I need guidance. So maybe when I have half of my debt paid off I will do that. And I will stay here in AZ/Hades for another summer, and deal with the heat, because it is the cheapest thing for me to do, and it will give me time to work on projects and not stress about moving and all that any time soon.
Okay. My life for the next six months or so is planned, I can go to bed now, I'll probably end up staring at the ceiling for a couple hours but oh well. My cold seems to be getting better. I get paid in less than two days, and can buy my stuff I need, and some crap I don't, and all is jolly and happy and all that shit.