Here, Have An Entry About Japan.
& Real Life
Ha ha, I've been so bad at updating recently! If I'm completely honest as to why, I've been really distracted by other things. My life has been almost entirely work, sleep and Pokemon RP. If it's any consolation, though you're not missing much. X3 I'm sorry I'm not more caught up on what's going on in your lives right now.
I've been doing some thinking recently, too. I'm not getting my hopes up yet, or anything, but... after Liz's most recent visit, I've got this crazy idea in my head that may or may not come to fruition, and... it gives me hope, I guess? Hope that things won't always be like this. That I won't always have to sleep alone, come home to my computer screen for comfort. Family is all well and good, it is, but I need something more.
When I moved away to live with Juumou, I took a huge risk. And I spent most of my time up there bitching and moaning about how I missed my old life. I didn't give her nearly enough attention as a result of that, and I was a lazy slob who coasted to get by. I didn't have my own space, either, which was nobody's fault, but it got hard when I had to go into the closet to stay up late, or crash somebody else's room when it really wasn't my place to. Overall, I'm grateful for my experience living there, because I learned a lot, but I definitely know what I'd do differently.
Either way, we'll see what happens. The visit was amazing, though. Full of small, seemingly trivial little memories that made me feel so... right. Cooking dinner with her, laying under the stars in my backyard and listening to the coyotes, checking out girls with her, going to the beach and watching her play with the passing dogs... waking up next to her and just laying there, watching her sleep, knowing I'll be the first thing she sees when she opens her beautiful eyes...
I swore I wouldn't throw myself into things anymore. But I'm twenty. I have to throw myself into things while I still have the chance to. Isn't that what life's all about? Experiencing things? We'll see where the road takes me, I guess. All I know is I'm feeling more optimistic than before. And more confused, too. I prefer this feeling over the hopeless apathy, though.
& Hello!Project
First and foremost, oh fuck, I really might need to buy this concert.
I recently went through and watched a ton of old H!P stuff. It's amazing to think that it's all over, that they've all graduated on to other things. Granted, part of me is massively happy, because they're all so much less restricted now, but I'll miss the unity, as well. And fuck, I'm meeting Yossi in twenty days.
I first fell for Yossi in junior year of high school. I watched a live performance of Mr. Moonlight and was completely enchanted by her. I started watching every Morning Musume video, live, and appearance I could get my hands on to see more of her. Everything about her is completely enticing to me. I love her as much as one can love a celebrity. and now, after years of wishing, hoping, praying... even a little crying (I know, I'm silly)... I'm going to be able to look her in the eye and say "thank you" for all the inspiration, humor and beauty she shared with me. It's the sort of knowledge that won't hit me until she's in front of me, and I can count the freckles...
Dear god. I am going to be a mess.
As far as the new stuff, I finally caught up a bit.
Aichan, Risa and Aika are my favorite Musume now. I'm kind of neutral toward the rest of them... I mean I'll always love Sayu and Eri, just because they're Gorokkies and I watched them grow up. I don't really care about JunJun and LinLin... and then there's Koharu.
Dear god, I cannot stand Koharu. Her attitude is awful, she's not even vaugely cute, and her voice is one of the worst I've ever heard. D: Which is a huge shame, because her look and singles are fucking adorable. D: The PVs for Papancake and Hapi☆Hapi Sunday are so cute... I might download the songs anyway and try to bear with them. D:
D: HER VOICE. WHY. >_____________X;; If she could sing, I could get over it.
This is also how I feel about Milky Way. Their outfits and songs are awesome, the kind of thing I'd be totally into... I just wish I could like Koharu enough to work through it. Tan Tan Taan! is an awesome song.. I'm imagining oldschool Mini Moni singing it and getting so sad. ♥ TT3TT
Seriously. Aibon in Pink, Nono in Blue, Marippe in Yellow. Do want. Sad face.
I am surprisingly pleased with Ice Creamusume. Most of the girls are pretty generic, but Peipei, Youko and ShenShen are pretty cute. @.@
The top three are PeiPei, Youko and ShenShen. The other three are.... eeehhh. Well, maybe if I learn more about them I'll come to like them? They aren't really my style.
I have taken special interest in PeiPei because she appears to be the tomboy of the group. Of course; leave it to me to gravitate towards the boyish ones. In my defense, they often tend to have some of the most fun personalities, as well, but... I am a sucker for boyish girls. Also, sidenote; can we talk about how much I need an Ice Creamusume jacket. Because it's a lot.
... Yeah. Oops. She's 18, though. At least she's legal. There are also a lot of ship comments about PeiPei and Youko, which I am very okay with.
( kasaiface, 1:07 and 2:02. Y/N. The second one is PeiPei and Youko. )
tl;dr my heart sitll hurts when they sing Renai Revolution 21, but I like the boyish one a lot.
What else... I don't care for any of Berryz Koubous' new singles, but I never really cared about them much other than Momoko, who is a cutie. Same with Buono! and C-ute. I just can't bring myself to want to watch, you know? Without a central focus, they're just a bunch of random girls.
I'm really, really happy to see Mari working so hard on her solo career. ♥ And that a few other artists are selling really well (Saitou Hitomi selling twice what she made with H!P What a great surprise!!) I am really worried about Ayaya, though, her single didn't do well at all... @_@ Only 1,400 copies... she used to be one of H!P's top stars. *sigh* and she's one of the best singers, easily. Oh how the mighty have fallen. I'll always love her, though.
Last but not least, Frances and Aiko. Um, Tsunku. IDK.
Yes. They are very eight and six years old. I worry about them.
Welp, I have to run my ass to work now. Hope everyone is doing well. I miss you guys so much, it's painful. @___@ ♥ Talk to you later! I might post later tonight, I'm thinking of dyeing my hair this evening... we'll see.
Peace! ♥
Ha ha, I've been so bad at updating recently! If I'm completely honest as to why, I've been really distracted by other things. My life has been almost entirely work, sleep and Pokemon RP. If it's any consolation, though you're not missing much. X3 I'm sorry I'm not more caught up on what's going on in your lives right now.
I've been doing some thinking recently, too. I'm not getting my hopes up yet, or anything, but... after Liz's most recent visit, I've got this crazy idea in my head that may or may not come to fruition, and... it gives me hope, I guess? Hope that things won't always be like this. That I won't always have to sleep alone, come home to my computer screen for comfort. Family is all well and good, it is, but I need something more.
When I moved away to live with Juumou, I took a huge risk. And I spent most of my time up there bitching and moaning about how I missed my old life. I didn't give her nearly enough attention as a result of that, and I was a lazy slob who coasted to get by. I didn't have my own space, either, which was nobody's fault, but it got hard when I had to go into the closet to stay up late, or crash somebody else's room when it really wasn't my place to. Overall, I'm grateful for my experience living there, because I learned a lot, but I definitely know what I'd do differently.
Either way, we'll see what happens. The visit was amazing, though. Full of small, seemingly trivial little memories that made me feel so... right. Cooking dinner with her, laying under the stars in my backyard and listening to the coyotes, checking out girls with her, going to the beach and watching her play with the passing dogs... waking up next to her and just laying there, watching her sleep, knowing I'll be the first thing she sees when she opens her beautiful eyes...
I swore I wouldn't throw myself into things anymore. But I'm twenty. I have to throw myself into things while I still have the chance to. Isn't that what life's all about? Experiencing things? We'll see where the road takes me, I guess. All I know is I'm feeling more optimistic than before. And more confused, too. I prefer this feeling over the hopeless apathy, though.
& Hello!Project
First and foremost, oh fuck, I really might need to buy this concert.
I recently went through and watched a ton of old H!P stuff. It's amazing to think that it's all over, that they've all graduated on to other things. Granted, part of me is massively happy, because they're all so much less restricted now, but I'll miss the unity, as well. And fuck, I'm meeting Yossi in twenty days.
I first fell for Yossi in junior year of high school. I watched a live performance of Mr. Moonlight and was completely enchanted by her. I started watching every Morning Musume video, live, and appearance I could get my hands on to see more of her. Everything about her is completely enticing to me. I love her as much as one can love a celebrity. and now, after years of wishing, hoping, praying... even a little crying (I know, I'm silly)... I'm going to be able to look her in the eye and say "thank you" for all the inspiration, humor and beauty she shared with me. It's the sort of knowledge that won't hit me until she's in front of me, and I can count the freckles...
Dear god. I am going to be a mess.
As far as the new stuff, I finally caught up a bit.
Aichan, Risa and Aika are my favorite Musume now. I'm kind of neutral toward the rest of them... I mean I'll always love Sayu and Eri, just because they're Gorokkies and I watched them grow up. I don't really care about JunJun and LinLin... and then there's Koharu.
Dear god, I cannot stand Koharu. Her attitude is awful, she's not even vaugely cute, and her voice is one of the worst I've ever heard. D: Which is a huge shame, because her look and singles are fucking adorable. D: The PVs for Papancake and Hapi☆Hapi Sunday are so cute... I might download the songs anyway and try to bear with them. D:
Click to viewD: HER VOICE. WHY. >_____________X;; If she could sing, I could get over it.
This is also how I feel about Milky Way. Their outfits and songs are awesome, the kind of thing I'd be totally into... I just wish I could like Koharu enough to work through it. Tan Tan Taan! is an awesome song.. I'm imagining oldschool Mini Moni singing it and getting so sad. ♥ TT3TT
Seriously. Aibon in Pink, Nono in Blue, Marippe in Yellow. Do want. Sad face.
I am surprisingly pleased with Ice Creamusume. Most of the girls are pretty generic, but Peipei, Youko and ShenShen are pretty cute. @.@
The top three are PeiPei, Youko and ShenShen. The other three are.... eeehhh. Well, maybe if I learn more about them I'll come to like them? They aren't really my style.
I have taken special interest in PeiPei because she appears to be the tomboy of the group. Of course; leave it to me to gravitate towards the boyish ones. In my defense, they often tend to have some of the most fun personalities, as well, but... I am a sucker for boyish girls. Also, sidenote; can we talk about how much I need an Ice Creamusume jacket. Because it's a lot.
... Yeah. Oops. She's 18, though. At least she's legal. There are also a lot of ship comments about PeiPei and Youko, which I am very okay with.
( kasaiface, 1:07 and 2:02. Y/N. The second one is PeiPei and Youko. )
tl;dr my heart sitll hurts when they sing Renai Revolution 21, but I like the boyish one a lot.
What else... I don't care for any of Berryz Koubous' new singles, but I never really cared about them much other than Momoko, who is a cutie. Same with Buono! and C-ute. I just can't bring myself to want to watch, you know? Without a central focus, they're just a bunch of random girls.
I'm really, really happy to see Mari working so hard on her solo career. ♥ And that a few other artists are selling really well (Saitou Hitomi selling twice what she made with H!P What a great surprise!!) I am really worried about Ayaya, though, her single didn't do well at all... @_@ Only 1,400 copies... she used to be one of H!P's top stars. *sigh* and she's one of the best singers, easily. Oh how the mighty have fallen. I'll always love her, though.
Last but not least, Frances and Aiko. Um, Tsunku. IDK.
Yes. They are very eight and six years old. I worry about them.
Welp, I have to run my ass to work now. Hope everyone is doing well. I miss you guys so much, it's painful. @___@ ♥ Talk to you later! I might post later tonight, I'm thinking of dyeing my hair this evening... we'll see.
Peace! ♥