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Alicia used to be engaged to this guy Mike. They were together for a few years... and I feel bad for Mike, I think he is a good person. Anyway, he and Alicia don't get along at all anymore, but he still cares very much about her family.
Backing up a year or so...
Alicia's cousin (who lived here, close to me), Paula, died on Valentine's day. She was only 17. It was so hard on me... I have known Paula since she was 5 years old... it was such a shock. She had an aneurysm. Well... I don't handle death well anyway... but during that time I was very sick, and the stress was making me even sicker. I was upset... so naturally who did I talk to? My bf. But he didn't want to hear anything about it... said I shouldn't care because she wasn't my family. That hurt me so much to hear... I wanted to talk to him about it, but nothing. The only person I really talked to about it was Mike, Alicia's ex-fiance.
Back to now... a year later... February again. Alicia's uncle, Carl, who was Paula's dad got very sick and went to the hospital. His conditioned worsened and he was put in a coma. A few weeks ago, after his conditioned worsened, Alicia came back to Atlanta to see him and her family. He passed away on March 25th. I was very stressed and upset about it... I didn't tell anyone though. I made a brief comment to Christian about Uncle Carl being sick (coincidentally it was the night he passed away, but I didn't know it at that point). He told me not to talk about it, that I needed to get over it, because I was stressing myself out too much. He didn't understand that what I needed was a friend to be there with me, because whether I want it to upset me or not, it would. So I stayed quiet.
Well, even though Mike and Alicia don't get along now, I knew that he always somehow finds out about these things... Alicia always calls him.
But he called me last night, and it occurred to me that I hadn't spoken to him for a long time, I didn't even think of talking to him about Uncle Carl. I thought he already knew, so I said "I guess you know about Uncle Carl..." and he said "I know he is sick but he is getting better..." and I just blurted out "He died." Mike was silent, and I started to cry... the first time I had cried about it since I had heard, and Mike started to cry too. I told him I was sorry to tell him, I was sorry I blurted it out... and he said it's ok, he would rather hear it from me than Alicia... but he was really hurt that her family didn't call him and tell him. I finally let it out, we talked... I told him that I had no one to talk to about it, Christian wouldn't let me talk about it, and no one else understands. I finally was able to tell someone how angry it made me that after Uncle Carl died, everyone left... Alicia's mom and stepdad flew back to Arizona, and that her grandparents went back to Poland. Everyone left Aunt Evelyn alone. Her family is in the Philipines... her entire life is gone... she lost her only child, and then a year later her husband. It felt so good to finally talk to someone... I had all these feelings built up inside about it. It breaks my heart that I had to tell Mike... I know Uncle Carl meant so much to him too...
I remember the last time I saw Uncle Carl... it was January, at his house. I was sitting in the kitchen with him, Aunt Evelyn, and Alicia. We were watching the video tape of Carl and Evelyn's wedding, because we wanted to see Alicia's dad (he died about 8 years ago). I miss him too... her dad was a wonderful person...
Backing up a year or so...
Alicia's cousin (who lived here, close to me), Paula, died on Valentine's day. She was only 17. It was so hard on me... I have known Paula since she was 5 years old... it was such a shock. She had an aneurysm. Well... I don't handle death well anyway... but during that time I was very sick, and the stress was making me even sicker. I was upset... so naturally who did I talk to? My bf. But he didn't want to hear anything about it... said I shouldn't care because she wasn't my family. That hurt me so much to hear... I wanted to talk to him about it, but nothing. The only person I really talked to about it was Mike, Alicia's ex-fiance.
Back to now... a year later... February again. Alicia's uncle, Carl, who was Paula's dad got very sick and went to the hospital. His conditioned worsened and he was put in a coma. A few weeks ago, after his conditioned worsened, Alicia came back to Atlanta to see him and her family. He passed away on March 25th. I was very stressed and upset about it... I didn't tell anyone though. I made a brief comment to Christian about Uncle Carl being sick (coincidentally it was the night he passed away, but I didn't know it at that point). He told me not to talk about it, that I needed to get over it, because I was stressing myself out too much. He didn't understand that what I needed was a friend to be there with me, because whether I want it to upset me or not, it would. So I stayed quiet.
Well, even though Mike and Alicia don't get along now, I knew that he always somehow finds out about these things... Alicia always calls him.
But he called me last night, and it occurred to me that I hadn't spoken to him for a long time, I didn't even think of talking to him about Uncle Carl. I thought he already knew, so I said "I guess you know about Uncle Carl..." and he said "I know he is sick but he is getting better..." and I just blurted out "He died." Mike was silent, and I started to cry... the first time I had cried about it since I had heard, and Mike started to cry too. I told him I was sorry to tell him, I was sorry I blurted it out... and he said it's ok, he would rather hear it from me than Alicia... but he was really hurt that her family didn't call him and tell him. I finally let it out, we talked... I told him that I had no one to talk to about it, Christian wouldn't let me talk about it, and no one else understands. I finally was able to tell someone how angry it made me that after Uncle Carl died, everyone left... Alicia's mom and stepdad flew back to Arizona, and that her grandparents went back to Poland. Everyone left Aunt Evelyn alone. Her family is in the Philipines... her entire life is gone... she lost her only child, and then a year later her husband. It felt so good to finally talk to someone... I had all these feelings built up inside about it. It breaks my heart that I had to tell Mike... I know Uncle Carl meant so much to him too...
I remember the last time I saw Uncle Carl... it was January, at his house. I was sitting in the kitchen with him, Aunt Evelyn, and Alicia. We were watching the video tape of Carl and Evelyn's wedding, because we wanted to see Alicia's dad (he died about 8 years ago). I miss him too... her dad was a wonderful person...