Always in the shadows...
I am constantly living in the shadow of someone else. There is always someone who stands out more, who does things better, who was there before me, and I can't escape that.
Sunday: My sister is the pretty one. No, I am not saying I am ugly, but she is prettier. We would walk around and people would talk to us, but really to her. If bands wanted us to listen to their stuff or visit their websites or something, they would give her the head phones, write the site on her arm, etc. Some guy even threw a free T-Shirt at her, a size small too, so it would probably fit (better than most). She can bat her eyelashes and get away with murder and she knows it. Oh well.
Beginning to work at AOI: I replaced Maggie who replaced Christie. At first, everyone would accidentally call me Maggie and people still talked about Christie. Eventually people got it right, and very few still call me Maggie.
Today: Maggie is on vacation this week and I am on phones. Everytime I have a call for John, I ring in, and he says "Yeah, Maggie?" and I swear he still doesn't know my name. It sucks not having an identity.
Life: Yes, I know that there are always people better than me at anything and that there are people prettier than me and that there are people who have done what I do. I also know that there are people who are worse than me at anything and that there are people less attractive than me and that there are people who will follow in my footsteps. It is always hard to deal with being in the shadows of others but there are people in my shadow as well. I guess that is how it goes. I would like to point out that I do consider myself to be in one of the top percentile ranges for these things though, so at least they are not deep dark shadows.
Sunday: My sister is the pretty one. No, I am not saying I am ugly, but she is prettier. We would walk around and people would talk to us, but really to her. If bands wanted us to listen to their stuff or visit their websites or something, they would give her the head phones, write the site on her arm, etc. Some guy even threw a free T-Shirt at her, a size small too, so it would probably fit (better than most). She can bat her eyelashes and get away with murder and she knows it. Oh well.
Beginning to work at AOI: I replaced Maggie who replaced Christie. At first, everyone would accidentally call me Maggie and people still talked about Christie. Eventually people got it right, and very few still call me Maggie.
Today: Maggie is on vacation this week and I am on phones. Everytime I have a call for John, I ring in, and he says "Yeah, Maggie?" and I swear he still doesn't know my name. It sucks not having an identity.
Life: Yes, I know that there are always people better than me at anything and that there are people prettier than me and that there are people who have done what I do. I also know that there are people who are worse than me at anything and that there are people less attractive than me and that there are people who will follow in my footsteps. It is always hard to deal with being in the shadows of others but there are people in my shadow as well. I guess that is how it goes. I would like to point out that I do consider myself to be in one of the top percentile ranges for these things though, so at least they are not deep dark shadows.