Oh, and did I mention...
I don't know if I've said this or not, but I could see myself staying in Juneau for a few years. I know it sounds bizarre, but I find myself thinking in longer terms than I had initially planned. I think about things like holding an office another year in Rotaract, working for a lobbying firm once I leave True North, or just how I'll be playing beerball next summer and so on. It isn't intentional, but I just sort of fell into a nice little niche here. I complain about guys but now it's about dating and having so many people interested rather than about how I am hopelessly alone. I complain about work but it's that I don't feel like I am in a position that challenges me and not that I don't have any money at all and that my finances are a mess. I complain about being lonely sometimes, but it is that I miss certain people and not that I have nobody... I feel like it is human nature to be somewhat dissatisfied, after all, if one is satisfied, one has no motivation to strive for more. Striving for more is, or can be, one of the things that I do respect about humanity.
Lauren will be back any moment now.
I missed her while she was gone, but I also grew somewhat accustomed to having a lot of time and space to myself. I hope that we don't clash over silly stuff. Sometimes I feel like everything is a confrontation in our living situation. That bothers me a little. I wouldn't change my living situation though. There is a lot of good. Both practical and in the sense that I am living with one of my closest friends.
Lauren will be back any moment now.
I missed her while she was gone, but I also grew somewhat accustomed to having a lot of time and space to myself. I hope that we don't clash over silly stuff. Sometimes I feel like everything is a confrontation in our living situation. That bothers me a little. I wouldn't change my living situation though. There is a lot of good. Both practical and in the sense that I am living with one of my closest friends.