I suck.
I never get what I want anymore, and I think it may be for a number of reasons.
1. Do I know what I want?
2. Do I say exactly what I want?
3. Do I deserve what I want.
The answers are No, No, and Yes. Yes, I deserve what I want, but I can't seem to pull it all off anymore.
Today I kept looking around at open mic night for a particular person who never showed up. Of course, I never said, "I'll meet you there" or "I'd love to see you there" or anything so bold, I just recommended it vs. homework.
Tonight I spent all my time with the internationals, wie immer, but I didn't talk to everyone I wanted to talk to.
Noelle tried to tell me that it is all about confidence, but it can't be... I am pretty confident, but I am not SEXY. I am cute at best. Not that there is anything wrong with that, I just need someone to think that cute is exactly what they want.
Tomorrow, before I go to Noelle's, Simon and Lia are coming over to have some drinks and hang out. It sounds fun. Maybe I'll invite a couple of others, but whatever, it could be fun with just them too. Le sigh. I don't have enough guy friends.
Anyway, I am just being silly and overanalyzing everything... the usual.
Leider, brauche ich was noch. Was? Das weiss ich eigentlich nicht.
Better news: I have a thesis topic.
The quiz is over.
And I only have one class tomorrow.
1. Do I know what I want?
2. Do I say exactly what I want?
3. Do I deserve what I want.
The answers are No, No, and Yes. Yes, I deserve what I want, but I can't seem to pull it all off anymore.
Today I kept looking around at open mic night for a particular person who never showed up. Of course, I never said, "I'll meet you there" or "I'd love to see you there" or anything so bold, I just recommended it vs. homework.
Tonight I spent all my time with the internationals, wie immer, but I didn't talk to everyone I wanted to talk to.
Noelle tried to tell me that it is all about confidence, but it can't be... I am pretty confident, but I am not SEXY. I am cute at best. Not that there is anything wrong with that, I just need someone to think that cute is exactly what they want.
Tomorrow, before I go to Noelle's, Simon and Lia are coming over to have some drinks and hang out. It sounds fun. Maybe I'll invite a couple of others, but whatever, it could be fun with just them too. Le sigh. I don't have enough guy friends.
Anyway, I am just being silly and overanalyzing everything... the usual.
Leider, brauche ich was noch. Was? Das weiss ich eigentlich nicht.
Better news: I have a thesis topic.
The quiz is over.
And I only have one class tomorrow.