Really?
Either I interpret things incorrectly or this is the longest most drawn out booty call ever...
What is this? Like... 6 texts (each) later and it is still in the "I don't have plans for the weekend" phase. This almost isn't worth it, but I kind of want to get my mind off of the real issues in my life.
In other news I sent a surprisingly brief and controlled message under the influence of emotion... I mean, honestly, it's a loaded gun and he'll recognize that, but if it isn't interpreted, it has a very definite point. I know, everyone will say that guys are simple and that they won't catch onto subtle hints, but trust me, he will, he does, and it isn't that subtle. I really think that guys get subtlety more than they let on though, they just know that they can play the thickheaded oaf and ignore the subtlety, forcing women to be blunt.
Today I have class with Antonio again, we'll see if it is just going to class or if I can manage a bit of quality time as well...
And, finally, I am still procrastinating on this referat, wtf? I really lack self control. Really and truly. Maybe I am just giving myself another reason to have a dysfunctional social life and no weekend plans? I tend to subconsciously sabotage my own social life on occasion... and my academic well-being as well.
What role do I play in your life?
In the past week I had a good friend of mine say basically, 'I'd date you, if you weren't so... sisterly' and I had another person, when discussing our 'relationship' admit to collecting 'mother figures.' And so, I somehow have this role here... The 'brother' and I are really good friends and sometimes he comes to me for advice, but we are always pretty much on the same level. The 'son' is someone that I have basically taken on the role of the conscience for, I am always the one scolding him for doing stupid things, giving advice, and basically acting like a mother... scary. I was talking to Rich about this and he started psychoanalyzing me, said it was an innate need in women to be needed. Then that got me thinking, yeah, it is kind of true, at least for me, I hate to feel that I need someone more than someone needs me... I want it equal or I want to be the one who is more needed. And, of course, everything is somehow connected, that expresses the problem with some of my relationships with guys here... I feel like I want/need them more than they want/need me.
But then there is the other part of me... the predator... I like a good chase, I get bored easily when someone wants/needs me more than I want/need them... I guess what it comes down to is that I need a balance. I really just need to find the person who needs me as I need them. Would I date my 'son' or 'brother?' No... Can I date the stupid boy, or even the sexy spaniard? It would also appear that the answer is no.
Can I have a functional social life? The answer is OBVIOUSLY: NO.
Ah, I love this shit. Overanalysis is just part of who I am.
What is this? Like... 6 texts (each) later and it is still in the "I don't have plans for the weekend" phase. This almost isn't worth it, but I kind of want to get my mind off of the real issues in my life.
In other news I sent a surprisingly brief and controlled message under the influence of emotion... I mean, honestly, it's a loaded gun and he'll recognize that, but if it isn't interpreted, it has a very definite point. I know, everyone will say that guys are simple and that they won't catch onto subtle hints, but trust me, he will, he does, and it isn't that subtle. I really think that guys get subtlety more than they let on though, they just know that they can play the thickheaded oaf and ignore the subtlety, forcing women to be blunt.
Today I have class with Antonio again, we'll see if it is just going to class or if I can manage a bit of quality time as well...
And, finally, I am still procrastinating on this referat, wtf? I really lack self control. Really and truly. Maybe I am just giving myself another reason to have a dysfunctional social life and no weekend plans? I tend to subconsciously sabotage my own social life on occasion... and my academic well-being as well.
What role do I play in your life?
In the past week I had a good friend of mine say basically, 'I'd date you, if you weren't so... sisterly' and I had another person, when discussing our 'relationship' admit to collecting 'mother figures.' And so, I somehow have this role here... The 'brother' and I are really good friends and sometimes he comes to me for advice, but we are always pretty much on the same level. The 'son' is someone that I have basically taken on the role of the conscience for, I am always the one scolding him for doing stupid things, giving advice, and basically acting like a mother... scary. I was talking to Rich about this and he started psychoanalyzing me, said it was an innate need in women to be needed. Then that got me thinking, yeah, it is kind of true, at least for me, I hate to feel that I need someone more than someone needs me... I want it equal or I want to be the one who is more needed. And, of course, everything is somehow connected, that expresses the problem with some of my relationships with guys here... I feel like I want/need them more than they want/need me.
But then there is the other part of me... the predator... I like a good chase, I get bored easily when someone wants/needs me more than I want/need them... I guess what it comes down to is that I need a balance. I really just need to find the person who needs me as I need them. Would I date my 'son' or 'brother?' No... Can I date the stupid boy, or even the sexy spaniard? It would also appear that the answer is no.
Can I have a functional social life? The answer is OBVIOUSLY: NO.
Ah, I love this shit. Overanalysis is just part of who I am.