why is life so diffucult?

[sugar14322]

If its love that keeps us breathing gives us something to believe in is it fear that makes us blind? tell me why is love so hard to find? WEll with that said, i guess u can say i have a lot on my mind yet again... i was outside cleaning the inside of my car and brian so happens to come outside and keeps looking at me and i get all worked up inside.. yea i know i should move on and get over him but how can i? I still love that kid to death even after all the shit he put me through... i dont know anymore . I guess ill never understand guys no matter how hard i try? i give up. Its so hard to think about whats goin on inside there head, maybe its best that i dont know. Anyways yesterday me and justin went to ronnys cottage and there was a bonfire and it was fun for a little while and then i got to hold a little puppy that was no bigger than my hand for about 2 hours and she fell asleep in my lap, i wanted to take her home...:( after that we decided we wanted to go home so i ended up stayin the night at justins. I am still sick, starting to get a little better not much tho, stuffy nose, sore throat. This week should be interesting...

Monday- psychology final, work 1-7
Tuesday-work 9-2 nutrition final
Wednesday- psychology final, insurance forms final, and computer applications for medical final... what a long day thats gonna be
Thursday- work 9-6 lakeshore choir concert at 7
Friday- work 9-7 relax, because..
Saturday= NEW YORK!!!!!! omg i cant wait, i love new york i wanna move there some day.. a great day of fun and shopping!
Sunday-relax

Hope everyone had a good weekend..