life... can be so fucked up

[sugamama27]

I've realized every Janruary i get depressed..from there on i feel like a different person i suppose im not as bad as last year thank god for that..seeing as i wouldnt want to hang out with anyone whouldnt go anywhere didnt like talking to people i knew but only people who had the same problems as me. i was also obsessed with cutting..and hating my family then this summer i figured out i just went threw a stage.. but it doesnt mean my depression is gone.. and that fuckin sucks .. the littlest things still get to me and annoys me and i can't even help it. it sucks that you have no reason for this depression but that it just came to me. i suppose i could blame it one a couple of my friends who treated me like "nothing" but that wouldnt be very fair. and i like those girls alot still. i know so many people think of "cutting" as stupid and retarded and blah all that shit but if you have never done it or attempted to... dont say anything about it. everyone just judges including me but we should all try and think before we assume.. just because you know someone who cuts doesnt mean there a loser it just means that have problems oh and one thing that makes me mad is that people who cut ... dont want to kill them selfs. get that threw your head people its just a way of dealing with saddness which becames anger... for example guys or even girls who get pissed and throw thier cell phone and punch walls... its the same thing... just thing about it or people who write or blast music there all different ways people deal and you just have to be accepting of one another. last year i have gone threw so much death never ment so much to me untill i had to experiance it ... and trust me noone wants to go threw death but hey its something everyone has to deal with if.. even with ourselfs.

Also another thing it makes me so so mad when people talk about me to my sister about the "rumor" going around the fuckin school... yeah if you have never talked to me EVER please dont say ANYTHING about me just because you hear something doesnt mean its true .... and if you say something doesnt mean its true either i dont care who you heard it from or whatever but im just asking dont talk about me if you dont know me cause my sister and i think your both very dumb :o)

but hey who cares fuck milford. <3